rgdestroyer
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I totally understand, it made seriously ill when I went through it and the doctors couldn't work out why I was so stressed. I never told them it was her.
Fact is it's an impossible situation and things will go wrong. I don't know how to explain this... you kind of have to accept that things are screwed up and that you will get shouted at, even when you don't deserve it, and that it's no-one's fault. Gradually you find ways to work around each other. My girl always used to come back from college incredibly frustrated by every little thing, it took me a long time to stop trying to fix things (which only annoyed her more) and to just sit down and listen to her. As a man I'm not used to that, you come to me with a problem and I try to fix it, I think that's the way most men are but eventually you learn and things improve.
Yeah, this whole ordeal has made me so very angry, but I've just had to learn to express in ways that won't hurt anyone...I guess I never understood the power that rape had over a women till like, right now. We never did find a way, and again, the posts i've posted shows she was crazy and a bitch. I never tried to fix things for the most part, i always just listened, of course i always had to text and ask, she 99% of the time would never just out right tell me what was wrong...Why? Why did I care? I wish I just left her after she said she wasn't attracted to me, i mean i know how awful that sounds, but, my heart wouldn't be in a million pieces and this semester could have been a success!!! and people at work wouldn't look at me as the guy who got his heart BROKEN but ya know, whatever, ya know, things happen for a reason I believe, so it's gotta purpose somewhere, just haven't seen it and cant let it affect the rest of my relationships with women. Most women will never be like this, i believe?
That goes to what I last said. Sometimes it's preferrable to just pretend that last boyfriend of yours didn't exist.
Makes sense since she blocked my FB account like a month after it happened and went to nights around the same time...