I realized something when C.M. passed away, and you've reminded me of it again now. The reason these forums are so awesome, beyond the external of clean format and regularly interesting discussion, is the genuine relationships that get formed here. I've been a part of a lot of forums in the past, and nobody, at the end of the day, actually cares about their fellow posters like people here in the WZ forums.
I realize that for a long time I was a mediocre poster (at best). I also realize that being a main page writer causes you to develop a sense of arrogance, and it may have come across often that I thought I was entitled to certain things because you are "a part" of us. But regardless of how annoying all that made me, none of you really treated me terribly. Put me in my place? Fuck yeah! But I think you did it because you genuinely care about the quality of the forums. I'd like to think at least some of you would rather see me turn into a great poster, than have me leave...
And you know what? There is a hell of a lot more community here than there is within the main page "family". I love some of those guys as well, but I have defended these forums and mods like KB and Sly to a few former writers that tried to spend a month here, and decided they were too good for it. I don't know how many people have told me "I hate the forums! The mods are assholes!" I'm almost positive they all got punished for spamming and didn't want to bother with nuisances like, you know, reading the rules... Now I understand why some of you hate the main page so much (outside of the fact that sometimes certain people are genuinely awful...).
Point is, I'm not yet at the point where I consider many of you to be real "friends". I'd like to get there, and I think some awesome relationships have started over the years that I'd love to develop. But the biggest reason I hesitated to just jump in and act like a part of the group, is that most of you ARE so close. It's not an insult to you for being "cliquey" it's a praise for being that open with each other! For me though, it's like going to a party where you don't know anybody, and pretending like you've all been best friends forever... Recently, and especially with the election process, I just decided to screw being casual and have as much fun as possible. I'm going to try out WZCW, possibly start a Book This! thread, and continue posting in the spam sections because I love you guys... It's why I asked for D-Man's help to become a better poster, and try to make some new friends on the way.
So thanks for the shout-out JGlass. I read the entire thing, and I empathize with your joy over freedom! There are a lot of times I wish I could just sit back and enjoy a PPV, without having to analyze it, preview it, review it, and tear it to pieces... But I love what I do, I'm genuinely working to get better at it every single day, and I think hanging out with you forum guys more often is helping me to do that. Props to Dagger too, for winning the election even though I bailed on him after the primaries.