"Well, I have to tell you, it was something rather short of surprise that I felt," I replied to the attractive young reporter in the front row. I stood in front of a small sea of them, various reporters from around the country - maybe even a few from around the world, but I could never tell these days - all gathered in front of the podium that I stood at. It had been the definition of a media circus in Los Angeles, surprise surprise, as we came closer and closer to Meltdown 100. I had been on the stage for ten minutes or so already. I'd gotten through most of their more inane questions - how did it feel to finally be here? How did it feel to be a part of history? I had given them the standard canned answers, the kind of crap that Max wanted me to say. I was waiting for someone to ask something interesting the whole time, Stoya's gaze resting on me from the back of the room. She pretended to be interested in her phone or in the binder she carried, but she was hanging on every word. I felt the slightest twinge of regret, knowing she caught hell every time I deviated from the script, which was often. Maybe she didn't deserve it. But I was fighting a war, and war had casualties.
Stoya was no innocent. No one would blame me for putting her in the crossfire.
"What did you feel when Showtime returned to WZCW?" the girl in the front row had asked. I gave the beginning of my answer with a bit of a grin on my face as I took her in. A red blouse, blazer. Very professional. Not even too low cut. Someone who played by the rules.
I liked her already.
"Here's a list of things I've called Showtime over the years. I had my assistant prepare this list," I said as I pulled out a piece of paper prepared just for this occasion. Perhaps I only imagined Stoya raising an eyebrow from the back at me, but it was a pleasant thought in any case.
"Slime. A liar. A thief. A monster - that one was big for awhile. I accused him of abandoning his wife and child - true, by the way. A glory chaser. Cocky. Brash. Arrogant. A bastard. All that and more besides. And every time I said it, all of you sat there in your seats and tutted, tsked, and shook your heads over so slightly. I was clearly crazy. I was just lashing out at a better man. I was all those things, just trying to project them onto Showtime to make myself look better, right? Because I was the monster, not Showtime. Not dear old Showtime. Not everyone's favorite wrestler. Not the shining world champion. Not the odds on favorite to go into the Hall of Fame next. Not your buddy, not your pal, no, not Showtime, never Showtime. He was just too good, right?"
"And then he came back into this company, knocked Titus's lights out, told him what he thought of him, and he's spent every waking moment since railing about why he deserves to be respected more than Titus, all the while taking every chance he can to knock out his former partner again. You've learned to hate him. You've learned the hard way everything I always knew about Showtime. You learned that he's everything I ever called him."
"I hate to say I told you so."
I looked out on the reporters. Not all of them were regular faces - this was a big event, of course - but I saw people whose names I knew. Whose faces I saw at these things all the time. The same people who had written about me for years, who had written down the things I'd said about Showtime and wrote their little comments after it, calling me a fool, calling me crazy. It was a strange feeling for me, to be validated in this after so long. I had grown so used to being on the outside. To look at this room of people I'd hated for so long, to realize they agreed with me, whether they liked it or not...that was something new.
"Who's the bad guy now, Showtime? You wore the mask of the valiant hero every time we stepped into the ring while I was champion, or while you were. You had the whole world buying into it. What will it feel like, I wonder, when you step back into the ring against whoever it may be, and see them all turned against you? You think you can handle it now, I'm sure. You've heard them boo you, you've heard them cheer for Titus against you. You think it won't be any different than before they learned to love you. I know better. You'll be in the middle of your match and you'll look for them to give you some support - you'll try to draw on their cheers, and they won't be there. Just hate instead. What will you do then, Showtime?"
I met eyes again with the girl in front. Did I know her name?
"I look forward to finding out, Showtime. I can't wait."
I stepped down from the podium and the room went into an uproar, everyone trying to get in one last question. I started to make my way toward Stoya, ignoring them, but instead found myself face to face with the girl in red.
"Do you want an exclusive?" I asked, somewhat surprised at the words I was saying.
"I've got another press conference in 15 minutes," she said, smiling shyly. Of course she did.
"Then tonight. Meet me in my hotel room."
"What's the number?"
"You seem clever. Figure it out for yourself."
She blinked once and smiled again, unsure of herself, but I was already leaving. I tried to walk past Stoya on my way out but she caught my arm.
"What was that about?"
"What? Showtime? Sorry, but there wasn't a page in the script about him. Sue me."
"The reporter. That woman - that girl. She can't be more than 20."
"What's it to you?" I asked casually, feigning it partway. It was a deliberate blow to her, and I wanted her to feel it.
To my surprise, she showed that she did. Clear pain flashed across her face before she managed to get it under control.
"Do whatever you want. Just make sure you actually show up to Meltdown 100."
"Why bother? I haven't got a match. No one bothered to book me."
"If you'd ever talk to me for more than thirty seconds, perhaps I'd have found time to tell you that it's you who's facing Showtime at Meltdown 100."
That gave me pause. I knew it was up to Titus, and I knew that I was an option, but...
I looked at Stoya harshly. Crossfire? No. I was aiming right at her. I still wasn't sure she deserved it, but I had to do it anyway.
"Send me a text next time, will you? I have things to do."
I turned my back without seeing her reaction, feeling an absurd flash of guilt as I walked away.
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Later that night, the door to my hotel room opened as I sat on the bed. I worried it was Stoya, earlier than expected. Instead, in walked the young reporter in the red blouse. She looked surprised to see me, inexplicably, as the door closed behind her.
"You promised me an exclusive," she said.
"I did. What's your name?"
"Jessica," she said as she walked closer to me. I stood.
"Who do you work for, Jessica?"
"WrestleTown.org," she said. I had never heard of it.
"I can make you a deal. I can give you my exclusive. I'll tell you who Showtime is facing at Meltdown 100. In exchange, well..."
I shrugged. She was clever enough to get in here, she seemed like she could fill in the blanks.
"You really expect me to sleep with you for a headline?"
That was exactly what I had proposed, but that wasn't what I was really after. Well, perhaps if she had agreed, but...at any rate, I said, "God, no. I don't sleep with reporters. Too much baggage. But you can do me a favor. Listen..."
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An hour or two later, I hadn't kept up with the time, the door opened up once more. It was Stoya this time, or at least I'd hoped it was. If it wasn't, I supposed I was about to be robbed.
"Drake? I got your text, did you want some -"
I was standing on the other side of the partially opened bathroom door. I had a fairly good idea of what had just opened. I strode into the room, my shirt off and my pants unbuttoned.
Stoya was looking at Jessica, laying in my bed with the covers pulled up to her neck and her hair tousled. Stoya was looking at her with no expression. She turned at the noise of me walking in and took in the sight of me. It didn't take much imagination to figure out what had happened here - or at least, what I wanted Stoya to think had happened.
"Bit early, aren't you Stoya? Oh, well. I needed a room service menu, actually, was wondering if you had one."
Stoya stared at me with a blank face. I couldn't tell if she was near tears or completely unfazed. She turned on a dime and walked right out of the room - though she shot a half glance back at me and Jessica on her way out. When the door closed, I turned back to Jessica.
"You are very strange, Drake Callahan," Jessica said as she turned over the covers and got out of the bed. To my surprise she went to retrieve her shirt, which she had taken off. That hadn't been part of the bargain.
"I'm playing my own game. Don't worry about it."
"I could just report this...whatever this is, instead of whatever you're about to tell me, you know," she said as she pulled her blouse back over her head.
"WZCW Superstar invites young reporter to his room to lay fully...er, nearly fully clothed in his bed for an hour? Who'd believe that?"
She laughed as she gathered the rest of her things.
"You're right. So what's the story?"
"Showtime is facing Everest at the big show. Have fun with that."
Her eyes glittered at the lie. She took the bait, hook line and sinker.
"I...wow, I can't believe it. This is huge! I need to get back to my room. This was...weird. This was really weird."
I nodded as she moved past me to the door. I sat back down on the bed and she was gone.
What did I want from Stoya? I had to break her first, I knew, before I could break it off with Max. If Stoya refused to work with me, then Max would have to reconsider his relationship with me. Perhaps he's send another agent. With any luck, he'd come out himself. But Stoya was his most trusted agent. If she would just leave, rail against me to Max, yell and scream about how awful I was...
I had to push her there. Deep down, I didn't want. I wanted things to be the way they used to be. But I couldn't have that. I didn't deserve that. The only thing within my reach at this point was freedom from Max, and I had to go through Stoya to get it.
I sighed and ran my hands through my hair, pushing it back. I thought about Showtime. I thought about what we'd been through together. Showtime was my greatest opponent, my greatest foe. I had met him one on one for the world title, he had stood across the ring for me in other world title matches. We had been part of the main event of Kingdom Come together. I'd never been able to put him away when it mattered. There were no stakes on the line other than history this time. Would I be able to win? I didn't know. Showtime was like a man possessed and I...I wasn't what I once was.
All the other things swirling about in the company came to me then. Ty was back in the flesh and I felt nothing. In another time I'd have been stark raving mad over it, plotting to tear him down during his match with Dave. Would I even watch it?
There was Zeus, as well. Everyone wanted to know why I had attacked him. The reporters had steered clear of it, though they probably would have gotten to it if I'd given them more time. Their fault for wasting it. Truth be told, I had only gone after Zeus to piss more people off. I knew Zeus was the golden boy of Banks and his ilk. The angrier he was at me, the more I was likely to piss off Max, and the more pissed off Max was...the closer I was to freedom.
What that meant, I didn't know for sure. But I knew I needed it. One way or another.
Soon enough, I would stand across the ring once more from Showtime. I had come to him as a contender, I had come to him as a champion. I had come to him for my rematch. I had come to him for blood. I had come to him an equal in the biggest main event of the year. I had worn every mask in my arsenal and he'd shown me all of his.
I was coming to him now as something different. I think, for the first time, I was coming to Showtime without a mask. Only myself, yearning to be free, would stand across the ring from Showtime and that...
That would be something to see.
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Stoya was no innocent. No one would blame me for putting her in the crossfire.
"What did you feel when Showtime returned to WZCW?" the girl in the front row had asked. I gave the beginning of my answer with a bit of a grin on my face as I took her in. A red blouse, blazer. Very professional. Not even too low cut. Someone who played by the rules.
I liked her already.
"Here's a list of things I've called Showtime over the years. I had my assistant prepare this list," I said as I pulled out a piece of paper prepared just for this occasion. Perhaps I only imagined Stoya raising an eyebrow from the back at me, but it was a pleasant thought in any case.
"Slime. A liar. A thief. A monster - that one was big for awhile. I accused him of abandoning his wife and child - true, by the way. A glory chaser. Cocky. Brash. Arrogant. A bastard. All that and more besides. And every time I said it, all of you sat there in your seats and tutted, tsked, and shook your heads over so slightly. I was clearly crazy. I was just lashing out at a better man. I was all those things, just trying to project them onto Showtime to make myself look better, right? Because I was the monster, not Showtime. Not dear old Showtime. Not everyone's favorite wrestler. Not the shining world champion. Not the odds on favorite to go into the Hall of Fame next. Not your buddy, not your pal, no, not Showtime, never Showtime. He was just too good, right?"
"And then he came back into this company, knocked Titus's lights out, told him what he thought of him, and he's spent every waking moment since railing about why he deserves to be respected more than Titus, all the while taking every chance he can to knock out his former partner again. You've learned to hate him. You've learned the hard way everything I always knew about Showtime. You learned that he's everything I ever called him."
"I hate to say I told you so."
I looked out on the reporters. Not all of them were regular faces - this was a big event, of course - but I saw people whose names I knew. Whose faces I saw at these things all the time. The same people who had written about me for years, who had written down the things I'd said about Showtime and wrote their little comments after it, calling me a fool, calling me crazy. It was a strange feeling for me, to be validated in this after so long. I had grown so used to being on the outside. To look at this room of people I'd hated for so long, to realize they agreed with me, whether they liked it or not...that was something new.
"Who's the bad guy now, Showtime? You wore the mask of the valiant hero every time we stepped into the ring while I was champion, or while you were. You had the whole world buying into it. What will it feel like, I wonder, when you step back into the ring against whoever it may be, and see them all turned against you? You think you can handle it now, I'm sure. You've heard them boo you, you've heard them cheer for Titus against you. You think it won't be any different than before they learned to love you. I know better. You'll be in the middle of your match and you'll look for them to give you some support - you'll try to draw on their cheers, and they won't be there. Just hate instead. What will you do then, Showtime?"
I met eyes again with the girl in front. Did I know her name?
"I look forward to finding out, Showtime. I can't wait."
I stepped down from the podium and the room went into an uproar, everyone trying to get in one last question. I started to make my way toward Stoya, ignoring them, but instead found myself face to face with the girl in red.
"Do you want an exclusive?" I asked, somewhat surprised at the words I was saying.
"I've got another press conference in 15 minutes," she said, smiling shyly. Of course she did.
"Then tonight. Meet me in my hotel room."
"What's the number?"
"You seem clever. Figure it out for yourself."
She blinked once and smiled again, unsure of herself, but I was already leaving. I tried to walk past Stoya on my way out but she caught my arm.
"What was that about?"
"What? Showtime? Sorry, but there wasn't a page in the script about him. Sue me."
"The reporter. That woman - that girl. She can't be more than 20."
"What's it to you?" I asked casually, feigning it partway. It was a deliberate blow to her, and I wanted her to feel it.
To my surprise, she showed that she did. Clear pain flashed across her face before she managed to get it under control.
"Do whatever you want. Just make sure you actually show up to Meltdown 100."
"Why bother? I haven't got a match. No one bothered to book me."
"If you'd ever talk to me for more than thirty seconds, perhaps I'd have found time to tell you that it's you who's facing Showtime at Meltdown 100."
That gave me pause. I knew it was up to Titus, and I knew that I was an option, but...
I looked at Stoya harshly. Crossfire? No. I was aiming right at her. I still wasn't sure she deserved it, but I had to do it anyway.
"Send me a text next time, will you? I have things to do."
I turned my back without seeing her reaction, feeling an absurd flash of guilt as I walked away.
----
Later that night, the door to my hotel room opened as I sat on the bed. I worried it was Stoya, earlier than expected. Instead, in walked the young reporter in the red blouse. She looked surprised to see me, inexplicably, as the door closed behind her.
"You promised me an exclusive," she said.
"I did. What's your name?"
"Jessica," she said as she walked closer to me. I stood.
"Who do you work for, Jessica?"
"WrestleTown.org," she said. I had never heard of it.
"I can make you a deal. I can give you my exclusive. I'll tell you who Showtime is facing at Meltdown 100. In exchange, well..."
I shrugged. She was clever enough to get in here, she seemed like she could fill in the blanks.
"You really expect me to sleep with you for a headline?"
That was exactly what I had proposed, but that wasn't what I was really after. Well, perhaps if she had agreed, but...at any rate, I said, "God, no. I don't sleep with reporters. Too much baggage. But you can do me a favor. Listen..."
----
An hour or two later, I hadn't kept up with the time, the door opened up once more. It was Stoya this time, or at least I'd hoped it was. If it wasn't, I supposed I was about to be robbed.
"Drake? I got your text, did you want some -"
I was standing on the other side of the partially opened bathroom door. I had a fairly good idea of what had just opened. I strode into the room, my shirt off and my pants unbuttoned.
Stoya was looking at Jessica, laying in my bed with the covers pulled up to her neck and her hair tousled. Stoya was looking at her with no expression. She turned at the noise of me walking in and took in the sight of me. It didn't take much imagination to figure out what had happened here - or at least, what I wanted Stoya to think had happened.
"Bit early, aren't you Stoya? Oh, well. I needed a room service menu, actually, was wondering if you had one."
Stoya stared at me with a blank face. I couldn't tell if she was near tears or completely unfazed. She turned on a dime and walked right out of the room - though she shot a half glance back at me and Jessica on her way out. When the door closed, I turned back to Jessica.
"You are very strange, Drake Callahan," Jessica said as she turned over the covers and got out of the bed. To my surprise she went to retrieve her shirt, which she had taken off. That hadn't been part of the bargain.
"I'm playing my own game. Don't worry about it."
"I could just report this...whatever this is, instead of whatever you're about to tell me, you know," she said as she pulled her blouse back over her head.
"WZCW Superstar invites young reporter to his room to lay fully...er, nearly fully clothed in his bed for an hour? Who'd believe that?"
She laughed as she gathered the rest of her things.
"You're right. So what's the story?"
"Showtime is facing Everest at the big show. Have fun with that."
Her eyes glittered at the lie. She took the bait, hook line and sinker.
"I...wow, I can't believe it. This is huge! I need to get back to my room. This was...weird. This was really weird."
I nodded as she moved past me to the door. I sat back down on the bed and she was gone.
What did I want from Stoya? I had to break her first, I knew, before I could break it off with Max. If Stoya refused to work with me, then Max would have to reconsider his relationship with me. Perhaps he's send another agent. With any luck, he'd come out himself. But Stoya was his most trusted agent. If she would just leave, rail against me to Max, yell and scream about how awful I was...
I had to push her there. Deep down, I didn't want. I wanted things to be the way they used to be. But I couldn't have that. I didn't deserve that. The only thing within my reach at this point was freedom from Max, and I had to go through Stoya to get it.
I sighed and ran my hands through my hair, pushing it back. I thought about Showtime. I thought about what we'd been through together. Showtime was my greatest opponent, my greatest foe. I had met him one on one for the world title, he had stood across the ring for me in other world title matches. We had been part of the main event of Kingdom Come together. I'd never been able to put him away when it mattered. There were no stakes on the line other than history this time. Would I be able to win? I didn't know. Showtime was like a man possessed and I...I wasn't what I once was.
All the other things swirling about in the company came to me then. Ty was back in the flesh and I felt nothing. In another time I'd have been stark raving mad over it, plotting to tear him down during his match with Dave. Would I even watch it?
There was Zeus, as well. Everyone wanted to know why I had attacked him. The reporters had steered clear of it, though they probably would have gotten to it if I'd given them more time. Their fault for wasting it. Truth be told, I had only gone after Zeus to piss more people off. I knew Zeus was the golden boy of Banks and his ilk. The angrier he was at me, the more I was likely to piss off Max, and the more pissed off Max was...the closer I was to freedom.
What that meant, I didn't know for sure. But I knew I needed it. One way or another.
Soon enough, I would stand across the ring once more from Showtime. I had come to him as a contender, I had come to him as a champion. I had come to him for my rematch. I had come to him for blood. I had come to him an equal in the biggest main event of the year. I had worn every mask in my arsenal and he'd shown me all of his.
I was coming to him now as something different. I think, for the first time, I was coming to Showtime without a mask. Only myself, yearning to be free, would stand across the ring from Showtime and that...
That would be something to see.
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