My apologies to anyone who reads this, just need to vent a little bit and have nowhere else to do it.
WHATS THE FUCKING POINT!
wife an I are expecting our first in october, again realize that this is stupid place to do this but i am stuck at work and screaming out loud would be frowned upon and I am fucking stuck here.
5 years ago she had to have her aortic valve replace. SHE WAS FUCKING 23 YEARS OLD!!!!.
this is a procedure that is common in people 60+ not 20 somethings.
anyway the sugery went horribly wrong a 4 hour surgery went 17 instead and she had to to be moved to Detroit for a possible heart transplant.
She spent the next 19 days in the hospital 13 of which were in a medically induced coma with a machine that was pumping her blood in an out of her body. I could see it. Makes wrestling blood seem a little pathetic when you have seen something like that. She made it through. They were able to get her off of the machine and she didn't need to have a transplant.
Worst fucking nightmare of my life.
she has been in great health since then.
We decided to have a kid.
Great im stoked believe me.
about a month an a half ago she develops a cough. Not a simple little thing a fucking hacking until you puke kind of cough. reading online and hearing from a few doctors led us to believe its sometimes common. Well it got a little worse, neither one of us have slept much in the past week. So she has to go see a lung specialist who today tells us that her fucking valve could be leaking again. This is 5 months after the cardiologist told us she was in great health and could handle this.
I wanna fucking scream, I wanna break shit I wanna vomit I wanna fucking drink.
great day tommorow she gets to go in for an echo. an then prolly a wait after that. Her fucking cardiologist is on vacation.
Sorry to spew all this out, I apologize if you wasted your time reading this you people don't know me and I don't know you.
Just going out of my fucking mind.
WHATS THE FUCKING POINT!
wife an I are expecting our first in october, again realize that this is stupid place to do this but i am stuck at work and screaming out loud would be frowned upon and I am fucking stuck here.
5 years ago she had to have her aortic valve replace. SHE WAS FUCKING 23 YEARS OLD!!!!.
this is a procedure that is common in people 60+ not 20 somethings.
anyway the sugery went horribly wrong a 4 hour surgery went 17 instead and she had to to be moved to Detroit for a possible heart transplant.
She spent the next 19 days in the hospital 13 of which were in a medically induced coma with a machine that was pumping her blood in an out of her body. I could see it. Makes wrestling blood seem a little pathetic when you have seen something like that. She made it through. They were able to get her off of the machine and she didn't need to have a transplant.
Worst fucking nightmare of my life.
she has been in great health since then.
We decided to have a kid.
Great im stoked believe me.
about a month an a half ago she develops a cough. Not a simple little thing a fucking hacking until you puke kind of cough. reading online and hearing from a few doctors led us to believe its sometimes common. Well it got a little worse, neither one of us have slept much in the past week. So she has to go see a lung specialist who today tells us that her fucking valve could be leaking again. This is 5 months after the cardiologist told us she was in great health and could handle this.
I wanna fucking scream, I wanna break shit I wanna vomit I wanna fucking drink.
great day tommorow she gets to go in for an echo. an then prolly a wait after that. Her fucking cardiologist is on vacation.
Sorry to spew all this out, I apologize if you wasted your time reading this you people don't know me and I don't know you.
Just going out of my fucking mind.
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