X, buddy I hope you feel better next time you appear on the forums and what not. Sometimes life gets ya down, believe me, I know, I've had a pretty rough past myself, but just as hard as it kicks you in the balls, you gotta get back up and prove that shit doesn't get to you, and if it does, it does for me too so I know how you feel. I hear you on the last part though man, the only girlfriend I've ever had, dumped me after two weeks, and I mean I'm not looking for sex and all that crap, like you, I just want someone I can connect with and share my feelings with. Life is rough sometimes, but you need to just pick yourself back up and put things back together/in order. Anyways man hopefully things will turn around for you. nWZo 4 Lyfe and 4 Tenta!!