I apologize for the length I had a lot to respond to.
Doesn't affect me in the least bit bud, I'm not the one in prison here. You keep talking about how everyone was disrespecting you---how so? By calling you out on your bullshit? By disagreeing with you? Shit happens all the time to the rest of us, but we don't turn into children who start challenging people to fights because of it. Which brings me back to my point about you needing to learn to control your emotions.
Have you listened to a word I've said? How so? Maybe by constantly addressing me like a rum-dum, or just disagreeing with me simply to disagree and shoot down anything I think, feel, or believe, or how about by constantly calling me every name in the book and making up new ones when you disagree with me, or how about not even trying to communicate a disagreement with me and just saying I'm stupid for saying what I think, feel or believe, how much shit do I have to list before you get it? What bullshit can you even call me out on? Being pissed at peoples hard-on for trashing me in every way they can? You can me a child for being upset at that? What the fuck is the deal with that? So apparently then if I don't just like eat shit by the shovel and I profess that I'm being a child? What a fucking double standard.
Where did I ever claim to be elite? Never. You're the one throwing that word around bud.
You don't have to, actions speak louder than words in this case.
When you say "treat someone like shit" you mean defend myself against someone who was telling me that I was literally evil and would be burning in hell for all of eternity? Was that the part where I was treating someone like shit? Silly me, you're right, I should have joined his hand in friendship! And the NAACP should have lunch with the KKK!
Ah, look at this. How interesting. When you're defending yourself that's not a problem at all because you're on the Right Side of the debate, but when it's me? I'm being a child, that's rich. If you need to defend yourself defend yourself, I don't care about that, but there is a way to do it. You don't have to try and morally debase a person. You keep talking about being able to take the lumps, but here you're professing an outrage at someone calling you evil and telling you you'll burn in hell for all of eternity. Now I am not saying calling you that, and telling you that is ok. But drawing on that experience, that pissed you off right? You didn't like it right? And you retaliated correct? So when you do it it's self defense, but I'm just whining? Ok, sure. Also I want to make it clear as well, I would never suggest that you should join hands in friendship with someone saying that to you, but realize what you have all said to me over and over and over. Here you've cited one occasion. For me, it's almost every day. And right now, it's every minute. Why? Because I won't take shit from anyone and I'm letting you know it. How just of you to attack me for that which you won't tolerate yourself.
I'm one of the most pathetic of the group because I defended myself against a bigot?
I didn't say that, you attached my words to that scenario which has nothing to do with anything I have been talking about, you brought that up, nice decoy, ain't falling for that. Point remains.
Which, yeah I know you like to pretend you aren't one, but sorry, you are
Oh and here we are back at this one, I'm the bigot somehow? Do just like to say bigot or something? So you just throw it around for fun or something? I'm about the farthest thing from a bigot you could get if you knew me personally. Frankly that's getting pretty old and lame, and no matter how hard you try to attach it, it doesn't stick, I'm not a bigot, period.
This brings me back again to my point about calling you out on your bullshit. Don't like my opinions? Too bad.
I could care less about your opinions, it's how you choose to represent them as though because they are YOUR beliefs they supersede all and are the only ones that are valid. Not the case.
You told me I was pure fucking evil and I didn't resort to childish threats of violence. I call you a bigot and you blow up like an infant. If anyone is pathetic here, it's you.
Well that's how you act 90% of the time so I said it. You are mean and hateful to people and it's cruel. Sure you don't respond with threats, just words that are meant to strike like daggers. I'm tired of you continually saying "At least I don't challenge people to fights" which is just you taking my statements way out of proportion when I was trying to make a point that you didn't need to talk to me like you want to get physical or something. Really, quit using the same old shit, that's all you've got, clever spin and accusation.
Again, feel free to point me to where I ever claimed to be elite, or where I'm "propping myself up as an elite". Was it when I was telling everyone to vote for Ricky over me in that Bar Room tournament yesterday? Was it when I was supporting and campaigning for many of our current mods to be brought onto staff in the first place, because of just how good of posters they were?
You don't have to say it you act it. As for when have you propped yourself up? How about almost any time I have ever seen you participate in anything. Your condescending and act like conversations and people are beneath you somehow because your "One of the Boys". Well, maybe you don't notice it because it's just the way you are or something, I don't know. But I do know that I'm not making anything up and you most certainly do cast an air of superiority like your the maharishi or something. You might not realize it, and if not I understand that, but realize I'm not just being a dick, this is what I have seen.
So you've thrown some crumbs from your plate supporting people in the bar room that you're chummy with, and have graced with your acceptance, big deal. What about now, or almost any other time when you're just parading as the end all be all. And isn't it funny how I can't bring up my tough times and the road I've had to walk that leads me to where I won't take your shit and you can just throw that in my face. But, when the shoe is on the other foot and I am coming at you, OH FUCK NO I DIDN'T, How dare I speak against any of you, but it's ok for you to speak anything you want of me, call me a child, a bigot, anything else you can to try and beat me down so I won't challenge you any further.
Honestly for you to accuse me of being egotistical is just downright hilarious, and really shows me you don't know me in the slightest bit, as anyone who knows me knows that the last thing I am is egotistical. Quite the opposite.
It's no different than you calling me a bigot amongst other things. You also show that you do not know me for if you did you'd know I am nothing of the sort you claim. The point therein that you need to stop calling me that shit, and if you do, I won't call you anything you don't like. What is wrong with that. I'm not talking about uneven terms here. I'm trying to get you to treat each other as well as me with more respect starting with yourselves.
I never challenged anyone to fights or tried to build myself up as some fucking internet tough guy, which is what you've been doing for weeks now and is really the most pathetic thing here of all.
Actually for the last few weeks all I've been doing is trying to do my best in the CLDL. I interjected myself ever so slightly in conversations which saw people just being hateful and rude to me because I didn't quite see things their way. Then once again we get back to the Challenging people to fights which isn't what I was actually doing and you know better. I've said it before and I'll say it as many times as is necessary, I was just making the point that people don't need to talk to me like their going to beat my ass for not agreeing with them so I'm like If you hate me so bad, and you want to kick my ass so much, fuck it, here's my address, come get if you want to rumble so bad But of course you can't accept that, you have to take it and turn it into whatever you want it to be so you can continue to fuck with me. What's pathetic is you peoples need to belittle everyone who doesn't agree with you.
That's another thing you've been tossing around is this idea that it all boils down to me being pissed off at people disagreeing with me, that's one of the biggest misconceptions all the way around. It as little to nothing to do with people disagreeing, and everything to do with the way they do it. It's not what you say it's how you say it and you people seem to have a knack for saying things in the most hateful way possible.
Again, if you think I've never had judgment passed on me, you simply do not know what the fuck you're talking about, and as I mentioned before, you obviously don't know me. I've gotten into spats and arguments and flamefests with most people on this forum, including some of the people I consider to be friends and others that I have loads of respect for. So come on Game Rage, lets go, start calling me out since I can't take it right?
Well, what have you been displaying so far? The very same outrage at being attacked, sucks don't it. I never said you've never been attacked, but boy oh boy you sure have become accustomed to not being challenged haven't you. I haven't seen it. I do know what I am talking about, and you can either acknowledge the truth or try to pass off a lie, make your choice.
What is it that I've done that's so bad? Defend myself against someone telling me I was evil? Yeah I threw some insults, what's your point? Insults had been thrown my way first, I never claimed to be above these petty spats (like you keep claiming that I have), and this is an example of that.
What have you done that's so bad? Well maybe in that one scenario you outlined that was supposed to embody the whole situation nothing. I already explained this above, go back and read it if you didn't catch it. It's your whole demeanor and way about things like so much is just beneath you. The only thing that doesn't seem to be is when you want to tear someone down, not defend yourself, when you want to make an example of people. I never said you claimed to be above petty spats, as a matter of fact that is what I am talking about. You don't seem interested in doing anything but throwing petty insults at people and making them feel like shit for having the nerve to speak something besides what you want to hear, just as you are with me now.
I don't know you very well, you obviously don't know me at all, but all I have to say is that you've conducted yourself absolutely 100% immaturely and that you need to learn to control your emotions.
I have behaved immaturely? Have you even seen what people have been trying to pull with me? The very same things that prompt you to defend yourself and that offend you I am somehow supposed to not be offended by or prompted to defend myself by? Who are you kidding? Because of that, and my fervent disapproval of peoples conduct you are calling me immature and saying I need to control my emotions? What about the assholes who fly off the handle at me all the time? Their ok, but I'm immature? Bullshit. I give everything I've got to you and everyone else trying to present different ideas, entertaining reading, and good conversation. The problem is that I can't have a conversation without someone going for my throat no matter what I say. And you talked about me trying to prop MYSELF as a internet tough guy when I have walked away from so many discussions when people have got out of line, avoided the confrontation, and based that basically on my one outburst there huh? No. I have tried to avoid conflict at the cost of looking like I couldn't finish what I started because I saw conversatons really going nowhere with people just hurling insults back and forth and decided not to be apart of it, until I had enough. Then when I did, supposedly I am all these rotten things. How nice of you all.
It's obvious you're an intelligent person, and like many intelligent people you're prone to letting your emotions get the best of you and getting swept up in your argument, but seriously, chill the fuck out.
Thank you, that's about one of the most mild and polite things I've heard today, and excuse me for maybe being more edgy but FUCK MAN, I've been being attacked at all angles since early this morning. I am tired, I am tired of it, and I am tired of having to justify standing up for myself. I have been trying to chill, but people keep coming to get their pound of flesh, what am I to do? Just say Oh that's ok, your right anyways I am a pretty big ***********
! No man. I'm getting it from you and everyone, why? Because I had enough and it took me freaking the fuck out for any of you to figure it out or give a shit, but only enough to ridicule me more for it. That's horrible man, no one should be pushed to that point. You're saying I need to chill? What about everyone else? Why is is ok for everyone else to keep coming at me, and I have to just take it, and if I decide to dish it back be punished for it?
When you start challenging people to fights, you've crossed the line. You need to learn how to properly conduct yourself, and then maybe you can be released from here and not be receiving these attacks left and right for your childishness. Anything else you'd like me to clear up for you?
DUDE!!! For fuck sake man, I wasn't literally challenging anyone to fights, I was making a point that I already explained that is like the big Trump card you've been playing on me. That's not what I was doing for the last time. I know how to properly conduct myself, I had been doing it for quite a while until people decided to insult me in every way possible. I'm not being childish in asking for people to act like fucking human beings and stop being such assholes? How is that childish? Because I am not okay with people being fuckheads to me or anyone they want? I doubt it will ever stop, but I am one stubborn son of a bitch, and I won't stop either. I will stand, I will fight, I will resist, and with God as my witness I will not tolerate any bullshit.