So, anyone here who knows me well knows that I have recently (a few months ago. Recent-ish, I guess) been broken up with, and that it was an online relationship.
Well, I thought I was pretty much over it by now. I'm not quite ready to have another girlfriend, but I was hoping to be passed the point where it affected me.
Well, the other week, we talked on the phone for the first time since the breakup. It wasn't a happy reason (One of our mutual friends went out and got drunk) but after I explained what our friend had done, she told me of some fears she had in her life and it almost seemed like old times. It was pretty amazing.
Anyway, a day or so ago she posted in a thread on the forum we met talking about her huge crush on one of her friends, and then talked about also really liking his brother. She then proceeded to describe why he was exactly her type.
She could have been describing me.
And this just...hurt. I can't really describe it. It just made me feel as though I wasn't good enough for her. I'm trying to put her out of my mind and move on, but it's hard. I don't feel like I fit in anywhere anymore. I don't have anyone who is instantly happy whenever I log on, and no one I feel I can tell everything to. It really sucks, you know?
I have no idea why I made this thread. I don't know i I'm looking for pity or advice or anything. Maybe I'm just tired. I don't know.
Well, I thought I was pretty much over it by now. I'm not quite ready to have another girlfriend, but I was hoping to be passed the point where it affected me.
Well, the other week, we talked on the phone for the first time since the breakup. It wasn't a happy reason (One of our mutual friends went out and got drunk) but after I explained what our friend had done, she told me of some fears she had in her life and it almost seemed like old times. It was pretty amazing.
Anyway, a day or so ago she posted in a thread on the forum we met talking about her huge crush on one of her friends, and then talked about also really liking his brother. She then proceeded to describe why he was exactly her type.
She could have been describing me.
And this just...hurt. I can't really describe it. It just made me feel as though I wasn't good enough for her. I'm trying to put her out of my mind and move on, but it's hard. I don't feel like I fit in anywhere anymore. I don't have anyone who is instantly happy whenever I log on, and no one I feel I can tell everything to. It really sucks, you know?
I have no idea why I made this thread. I don't know i I'm looking for pity or advice or anything. Maybe I'm just tired. I don't know.