The Big Gunnzbowski
Damas y Caballeros...
Honestly, my first thought was to call up one of the many skanks I used to fuck before we were together. Then I thought about it and realized no matter what, the only reason I want to fuck a chick isn't because of the sex but because of the company. I haven't slept alone but maybe once or twice in the past 2 years and now it's just me. It's such a shit feeling to have a piece of you missing.The absolute worst part though is it was my fault. I usually don't play the blame game but there was so much more I could have done. Seeing that she was the best friend I've ever had, I never told her enough. A super rough fucking start this is going to be.
In slightly lighter news, my friends made an awesome effort to comfort me today. The friends that I hadn't been close with for a while because me and my ex were so exiled all of the time, they still cared enough to know that I really needed someone. That's awesome and it really makes me feel better.
Like NorCal said, post-break up random sex leaves you feeling worse... You feel like a shitty person, because of it. And if she finds out, any shot you had is forever lost... If it's one thing that I found out about my situation, it was that my best friend was there for me to help pick up the pieces. I will always love him for that, because without him, I don't know how far I would have fallen. That's a really noble thing your friend did... It shows you that he's a true friend, which is something you need right now. Also, in regards to what NorCal said about finding something to occupy yourself with, it couldn't be any more true. I know you probably feel a lack of motivation to do ANYTHING right now, but start trying something you like to do gradually. Try and fill empty space in the day with mind occupying activities. It will be more beneficial for you than any of us could ever explain. You have to prove to yourself that you're still alive, no matter how dead you feel inside!