I appreciate all the kind words, all the PMs, the Skype messages. You guys mean the fucking world to me, each and every one of you. Today was rough, this week was rough. I don't admit this to many people, but in my late teens my depression and anxiety grew and grew until I had a literal meltdown/breakdown while in college, and my life has more or less been on pause ever since. I'm almost 24 and the state of Indiana still considers my parents my overseers. They don't consider me mentally competent enough to hold a job, to live on my own, or to even have my own bank account. I don't have many friends, I have been in and out of mental facilities since I was 19, I've been on anti psychotics since I was 14, I've survived multiple suicide attempts, but I always told myself someone would come along take my hand and lead me to happiness. For the last year, I was completely devoted to this girl. I would have followed her to the end of the Earth, and to get a text the day after our anniversary from her saying she never loved me literally ripped my heart from my chest. Then for my attempt to win her back to be called selfish, it was almost literally a death blow.
I'm still gonna cry, I'm still gonna hurt, but I can't turn my back on you guys. I live in the same house with my brother, and he rarely speaks more than two words to me, but I would never not be there for him if he needed me, and you guys have proved that you are all my brothers. I love you all.