Wow, that was pretty immature of you to say.
Coco, noone knows you personally. Its the internet, but this is your real life. You never have to take any advice given to you, but like I said last night. If you love your Grandfather, I know its hard.. & I have NEVER been in your position. I know "I'LL" hurt the day I am, but man.. get off the computer. Go spend time with your real Family.
All of us will be here when you return. We'll all be waiting to give you crap with you return, to try & take your mind off it as well.. so just try & relax. But most importantly, show your real family how much you love them & need them. Because most likely, you aren't the only one in your Family hurting over this situation.
I am spending MORE time with my family than I am on the computer for today. Everyone is sleeping hence the reason why I am online now. I wrote that when I got home to a home alone house bc my dad was working and my brother was coing home to pick me up to take me to the hospital for my grandfatehr and my other bro and mom were in the hospital with me grand dad.
We had dinner as a family in a diner and were discussing emotional stuff and people were crying badly. Oh wait...that was me and only me. Turns out when my granddad does pass away and when heg ets buried in Israel, yes you guessed it I am Jewish, I won't be able to go because it is too hard for me. Someonne needs to stay with my grandmother, she has Parkinsons and it's amazing that she is only crying when she heard the bad news about what my grandfather, will explain later. I also can't go to Israel because my Israeli Passport has expired and won't get renewed until the 2nd or 3rd week of January. SO if my grandfather can't live until that long, which is highly doubtful, then I might go.
My grandfather has had Altzeimers for 10 years now. His brain told the feet to stop walking and he hasn't walked in like 4 years. Then the brain told his wtvr to not swallow anymore so he is now fed through a feeding tube. He is in bed all day at home in a special hospital bed that vibrates or something like that every 10 minutes so he doesn't get bed sores.
Now the problem with him is this:
He has 3 problems:
1) A normal human being's heart beat should be at 100 percent. When it gets up to a 1000 percent the person dies due to heart failure. Yesterday his beat was at 432 (right in the middle of it) and my mom won't know what his beat is now until she talks to the heart doctor tomorrow. So his heart is about half damage and is very very weak.
2) His colon (the thing that transport the stool and all the feces and literally shit) is enlarged and is most likely not working anymore. That means when he is fed by the feeding tube, he makes in his stomach. Now he has 1 of 2 choices. Get Colon Surgery which they put this kind of bag in it so he makes in that bag and wtvr
or not have the surgery and not be fed, which he can't live if that happens. But the problem is, due to his weak heart, there's a possibly that he won't survive the surgery.
3) The doctors may have found spots on his spine, that might be Cancer.
Now I visited him tonight. He was sleeping with a oxygen mask and an oxygen bag thing to help him breath. I kissed him on the forhead and he didn't even move. That scared the shit out of me, and I walked out of the room because I was going to lose it right there and then.
Yesterday he had a fever of 93 and today he had a fever of 103/101 not reallly sure. But he is on anti-biotics.
The man has had altzeimers for 10 years where he was only supposed to last for 5. The legs and the swallowing stopped. The heart was the thing that made him last 10 years but now it's weak so yea.
I love him so much, and I don't want him to die, but when we had a family discussion during dinner at the diner after the hospital, we all said that it is selfish of us to want him to live because he is giong through so much pain and suffering where he can be at peace in the heavens with his parents and family.
So this is what I am going through in my life, not including school and shit. When my grandfather dies...I won't be on as much. But I can not just not come on the forums. I need this place to get my mind off of this. This is my little place to escape some of it.
This is the first time I am experiencing something like this in my family from when I was alive or could actually remember. And the sad part is....when I was like 6 he was diagnosed with Altzeimers so I don't have memories of me and the REAL him. He was such a great man. Would pick up other Jewish people who needed to get somewhere. One of the most nicest and kindest man you'll know.
Approximately 20 minutes ago I had a heart to heart with my mom and I cried like a baby and I am not ashamed. IT made me feel good to talk about it and to cry, like i am doing the talking about it now...I'll most prolly cry myself to sleep but this is actually helping a bit to those who are listening. She told me stuff about him and that she told me in the summer that I should have had in the back of my head that one day he was going to go. SO I asked her why couldn't he have peacefully died in his sleep the night before he had to go to the hospital. She said she doesn't know and then told me a story of how a person that she knew went into the hospital for a colonoscopy and they put him to sleep for 10 minutes to do the procedure and he never woke up from that 10 minutes. They tried to revive him and right now he is on a ventelator. So why did G-d do that?? We just don't know.
Whether it is a smart desicion or not...I want to know why G-d is making us suffer, why can't he just let my grandfather not be in pain anymore? I am not blaming G-d or pointing the finger at Him, G-d forbid...I would never do this. But G-d does control everything and I want to know why this is happening, and I know I'll never get the answer. But you have to trust in G-d that He is doing the right thing, but forgive me for this, I don't think it's going greatly. But He has his reasons. I may not like them, but I still respect them.
Well this is what I am going through, plus school....life in general. If there is anything you guys would like to know feel free to ask because it will make me feel good to talk about my grandfather, Isaac Dagim. (Hebrew NAme: Yitzchak Dagim)
You have the worst luck. I mean that's just the suckiest thing that could happen...ever.
I'm old enough to be a teacher. So yes, I think I have that right 
