No I understand. I'm not taking any of this as a personal shot at me by any means... especially when anybody I've ever spoken to about this has said that they felt the title was doing more damage to me than good. "Holding me down" is the phrase I've heard thrown around a lot... though I take pride in being a Mayhem champ that had matches with nobody except "Showtime", Barbosa, and Titus for an entire cycle as opposed to "lower" or "mid-carders," and ending the run against Titus/Red Mask is pretty awesome IMO, too.
I just have a really weird connection to the Mayhem strap. It's the first and only title I've won here, and I was legitimately ecstatic when I won it nearly a year ago. I remember reading the match and throwing my hands in the air while letting our a Flair-esque "Whooooo!!!!" and my girlfriend wondering wtf was wrong with me. And going into that match, I didn't really care too much if I won or lost. Winning the Mayhem title is what made me realize I'm in WZCW for much more than killing boredom. When I won that title, I realized I actually cared deeply about being in this fed... and I think that's when I really started to find myself as a character and RPer. So, for these reasons, I hold that crappy little strap very near and dear to my heart. I was saddened to hear they were gonna retire the belt, a little distraught, too... but I knew about this over a month ago now... maybe even 2 months I think, so I've gotten over it.
Little trivia fact... the boards close on the 1 year anniversary of my title win. So, win or lose, I will have held the Mayhem Title for over 1 calendar year. Pretty sure that's never been done in this fed before, so... I'm pretty happy with that. It's no Ty Burna year long undefeated streak... but I'll take it.