[Official] X Marks the Spot: Xfearbefore Xclusive Thread

[Razor]

Not at all, don't worry. It's going to be an incoherent rambling mess of a book. I plan on writing atleast half of it on toilet paper in honor of Jack Kerouac.

Hurray! I shall write half of my book on used paper towels, to symbolize the waste of America. It won't make any sense though, because people won't ever know I wrote half of my book on used paper towels. But there's the meaning, ya know?

Razor, you should base a character in your novel off The NorCal. Im a novel worthy character id say.

Definitely. I would make you the leader of my warrior/school thing, but he doesn't exactly stay nice. I think I have more than enough room for a forced outcast that helps my character realize his purpose in life and confront the main enemy of the novel. You shall be a Yoda to my Luke Skywalker. A Batman to my young Robin.

I just need a name.

 

[C.M.]

That's like asking if I'm breathing.


What's got you down man? Same thing as me, not knowing what the fuck to do with your life or how to achieve any kind of sustainable amount of happiness?

Both.
I'm a fucking wreck right now.
Feel so alone. Havent slept in like 36 hours

 

[X]

Both.
I'm a fucking wreck right now.
Feel so alone. Havent slept in like 36 hours

Join the club man. I haven't slept since Friday, I've basically been on a drink and drug binge over the weekend until now. Practically pouring my fucking heart out to strangers on 4chan.

Here's what someone just told me, which did make me feel a bit better:

"Being happy?

Stop thinking of yourself as a victim. Stop wishing to be happy. Start working.

Your problem is your expecting some unknown mystical higher force to come down and either fix all your problems, by giving you a lucky break (winning a million dollars) or that you wake up one day with an incredible clarity and insight as to what you want, with mystical motivation like you've never felt before.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YEtiHp5Uisc

that's a daily motivation clip.

In short, stop waiting for everything to come to you, work for your happiness

Cont'd

What you're saying is that you realise your life is shit, you're a drug addict who does nothing productive except spends hours watching movies, working, 4chan and sleeping. But you want to be tricked into believing that you're happy anyway. You want reality to be faked for you, to say, my life is shit, but i'm still happy!

You're unhappy because you're not reaching for your potential.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GEkz1XK75XE&feature=player_embedded

No one here can say the magic words to make you happy. There is only going to be information which YOU have to sift through and decide whether or not to put into practice. Even that is work.

Work on yourself man.

Good luck.

Anon."

Now if only I can actually follow through on this.

 

[X]

Some more shit from the wonderful anonymous:

"The mind, the senses, everything that exists, is in a constant state of flux. You grasp: either you dissapear or what you grasps dissapears. Your expectations will lead you to dissapointment or you will lose yourself. You must change the way you view the world and understand it's inherent emptiness - no things last, no things stay the same, all things are transitory - in that they are transitions to other things - know this: if you are happy, know that it is a transitory to sadness (one thing) - you are alive, know it is a transitory state to death. We know they will happen, but we do not reflect on their transitory impermanent nature. What one should seek is peace of mind, which is free of fickleness and a guide to your life. "

 

[C.M.]

Join the club man. I haven't slept since Friday, I've basically been on a drink and drug binge over the weekend until now. Practically pouring my fucking heart out to strangers on 4chan.

Thanks
I smoked so much Sunday night/monday morning, I'm still feeling the effects now.

I just called her an hour ago because I felt so alone & needed someone to talk to. I hadnt texted/called her for 2 weeks

 

[X]

Thanks
I smoked so much Sunday night/monday morning, I'm still feeling the effects now.

I just called her an hour ago because I felt so alone & needed someone to talk to. I hadnt texted/called her for 2 weeks

I did the same with my ex last night. Used the excuse of her family being Saints fans to call her.

Tell me you aren't still fucking with the meth dude...man, I'm telling you, you don't want to go down that path.

Wait, who the fuck am I to say that? I spent this weekend in various states of intoxication from alcohol, dexxtromethorphan, MDMA, cocaine, marijuana, sleeping pills and oxycontin. I have no fucking room to talk.

You get what I'm saying though.

 

[Razor]

Going to Anon for advice? I'm surprised they haven't spoken of raping dead dogs yet.

 

[X]

Going to Anon for advice? I'm surprised they haven't spoken of raping dead dogs yet.

Not that anon. No one goes to that anon for advice. No, just letting it all out on one of the new boards they just launched.

 

[C.M.]

I did the same with my ex last night. Used the excuse of her family being Saints fans to call her.

Tell me you aren't still fucking with the meth dude...man, I'm telling you, you don't want to go down that path.

Wait, who the fuck am I to say that? I spent this weekend in various states of intoxication from alcohol, dexxtromethorphan, MDMA, cocaine, marijuana, sleeping pills and oxycontin. I have no fucking room to talk.

You get what I'm saying though.

Yeah. That's what I smoked.
Worked Sunday Night, got home at 1am monday morning, smoked it, then went to work at 10am without sleep & still havent gone to bed.

 

[Razor]

Ah. New board? I haven't heard of such a contraption yet.

 

[Mighty NorCal]

Goodness golly, what the shit is going on in THIS here thread

 

[Murfish]

I made you my least favorite poster.

 

[X]

Ah. New board? I haven't heard of such a contraption yet.

Advice board. Yeah they launched a few new boards. /b/ hasn't yet corrupted the new ones yet. Only a matter of time before the News board they just launched turns into a hailstorm of Haiti jokes.

Goodness golly, what the shit is going on in THIS here thread

Depressed ***** talking about drugs.

I made you my least favorite poster.

If I wasn't such a nihilist that would actually have hurt Murf. Anyone but you. Anyone but you.

 

[Razor]

Ewww....the cancer of /b/ spreading throughout the new boards is a day I shall not witness. Therefore, I shall stay away from these new boards outright, so that I will not be forced to realize the shit they will become.

 

[C.M.]

I feel much better today, feel kinda sick, have a headache but nonetheless I feel better. Got some advice from someone, so now all I need to do is follow it.

 

[X]

I feel much better today, feel kinda sick, have a headache but nonetheless I feel better. Got some advice from someone, so now all I need to do is follow it.

Yeah dude you know I'm not exactly an anti-drug guy but I'm tellin you, you need to stop fucking with that shit. It WILL fucking ruin you dude, trust me.

My PM box is always open dude.

 

[klunderbunker]

X, I just finished November to Remember 1998.

Do you have any drugs i can try to get rid of this throbbing headache?

 

[X]

X, I just finished November to Remember 1998.

Do you have any drugs i can try to get rid of this throbbing headache?

Why the headache? More Joey Styles hate? Yeah that was a pretty shitty show man. November to Remember 99 is about 1000 times better.

 

[klunderbunker]

6 matches. 5 times there had run ins.

The main event is a 6 man tag, at their Wrestlemania. They knew Shane was coming back at this show at Heat Wave, and they had already had to drag out Shane vs. Taz for 6 months or so. And instead of Taz vs. Shane, they do a six man where they set up Sabu vs. Taz.

Really?

 

[X]

ECW's booking at that point made no sense whatsoever KB. Just go with it. Most of ECW's best guys had already been sucked away by WCW and WWF at that point.

 

[klunderbunker]

Ah good, so it's not just me trying to make sense of it.

 

[C.M.]

Yeah dude you know I'm not exactly an anti-drug guy but I'm tellin you, you need to stop fucking with that shit. It WILL fucking ruin you dude, trust me.

My PM box is always open dude.

Yeah. I know. I'm going to try not smoke it anymore. I just have so much stress right now.

 

[Mr. TM]

Don't know if you like them

 

[Lil Wes]

Take some mofuckin' pictures or some shit mang. I need to see this beastly creation.



Eh man I haven't really been into anything Em's done in years, maybe I should listen to him more. His last few albums have all been one big long "meh" from me though. Dre's production isn't nearly what it used to be and Em just doesn't sound half as passionate as he used to.

By the way your sig is fuckin' epic bro. Cudi is on fire right now.

Try this, I like this new style from him...

[YOUTUBE]Rbn2Ox-Swuo[/YOUTUBE]

THAT is the passion he's been lacking.

 

[Lil Wes]

Yeah. That's what I smoked.
Worked Sunday Night, got home at 1am monday morning, smoked it, then went to work at 10am without sleep & still havent gone to bed.

DUDE, NO! Stop now, go to fucking rehab, do what the fuck ever you can possibly do to stop that shit ASA fucking P. I sold, I've seen what it's done to people, my friends and family. You don't want to go down that route. Trust me.