Its a good question to ask, to be honest. The question of "Would you want to believe in a God?" is probably the question to ask and answer before answering the What would that God look like? For me, I look at it as Yeah, I do want to believe in a God. I want to believe there is reason and meaning for what I do that exists outside of the world we live in. That there is some rationale for all the crazy, screwed up things in this world. Unfotunately, it's so hard to do, because like you said, the type of God you(and I) want to believe in is one who unites people, prevents disease and sufferring, and gives the same rights(I.E. being a child of God) to all people in all walks of life, no matter the general path they choose.
And here's what I hate about the idea of free will. I grew up in the church, under the notion that there are no short cuts to God. But also that God has the "Jeremiah 29:11 plan" for my life(Plans to prosper, to give all people a future and a hope) but I look at life and the world we live in and I see anything but. And I hear, "well, those people aren't doing "this" enough", or "God will see their heart and do what's right by them eventually". And damn, thats just not the type of God I want to believe in. I know that sounds like an idea of wanting instant gratification, but it's more of the idea that I see really good people who do whats considered "right" having one misfortune after another, and I see despicable, amoralistic people living healthy, prosperous lives. And I struggle to reconcile the two. Ive heard that heaven is when those who do what's right will be rewarded, and vice versa for those who don't. But I wonder, what is an all-loving, all-knowing God, waiting for? Why Heaven? And so the cycle goes, and there were times I wished I was raised with no beliefs, because not believing sometimes seems a helluva lot easier then believing does.
