"Max wants to see you," Stoya said, as calmly as if she were announcing it was raining outside. We were sitting around in a restaurant, her messing with some paperwork, I on my phone. I glanced at her as my heartbeat raised.
"Has he got a reason for that?" I asked.
"Max doesn't need a reason to see his star client, does he?" she said, the sarcasm unmistakable.
"Maybe not his star client, but me? I'd like to know."
"He has some concerns," she replied, shrugging casually.
"What concerns could he possibly have? I've defeated Mikey Stormrage and Showtime in the last few weeks. I lost only to the world champion, like you could blame me. Things have been looking up."
"Do you think I wouldn't tell you if I knew? He wants to see you. That's all I know. We leave for New York in a few hours."
"I believe that's exactly the case. If you want to weave some trap for me -"
She interrupted. "I expect it's something to do with your ever increasing paranoia, but that's only speculation on my part."
I glared at her and stopped talking. The last thing I wanted to do right now was see Max. I was still trying to find some way to get out from under his thumb - returning to his base of power was hardly the way to accomplish that.
But, still. I didn't have much of a choice, did I?
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"This latest conspiracy of yours is not the correct path," Max was saying from behind his desk. "It is causing me no end of trouble. I thought we were getting back on the right track, Drake, when you beat Mikey Stormrage, but you all but renounced any intention of ever going for the Eurasian championship. It would have been a nice stepping stone -"
"I don't need stepping stones. I deserve the world title that is still rightfully mine, Max."
"Open up your eyes, Drake. You haven't been champion in a long time, and you only held the belt from pay per view to pay per view. You need to earn your way back to the top. Your sense of entitlement is misplaced in the extreme."
"The belt was stolen from me by a conspiracy - "
"Was it, Drake? Even you seem to waver from week to week on what it is. This one's a monster, that one's okay, he's Ty Burna - what is it, Drake? Whatever's convenient for you to justify your ravings?"
"It's..." I wavered in the face of Max's criticism. I knew. I knew all too well. The patterns changed, went back and forth. I knew it didn't lend me any credibility, but it always made sense in the moment. "It's complicated, Max."
"And now Zeus and Beard are the new public enemies. Tell me, which one is Ty - or are they both Ty? Maybe one of them is Serafina, is that it?"
Anger flashed in me at Max's mocking and I met his eye.
"It's more complicated than this, Max. They're just...darkness and the shadow of Ty. Like Califa was, like the Altar was..."
"Your job isn't to cleanse the darkness. It's to win a title. That's what we're here for. Every time I see you out there prattling on like an idiot about the darkness, I get a pain right here -" He put a hand over his heart "- and I have to take a deep breath to prevent myself from having Stoya call you back. I couldn't resist this time - you needed to be reminded of your purpose."
"Stop telling me what my purpose is. You work for me, Max, don't forget that. I pay you to negotiate contracts and open doors, nothing more and nothing less."
"That is bullshit, and you know it. Let's not forget how this started, Drake. I bailed you out. I signed you to a contract making you the face of this agency. I own you, Drake."
I stood up, trying to tower over Max for leverage. It didn't work - he was imposing no matter what.
"That's not the contract I signed and you know it, whatever delusions you have, old man."
"How the hell would you know? You were half drunk and had just beaten the shit of your loser girlfriend when you signed it! Did you even read it?"
That cut deep. I wasn't interested in being reminded of all of that right now.
"Don't go there, Max. That's not...that was a long time ago."
"Maybe you need to be reminded of what you are, Drake," Max said, standing up. "You are a drunk with just enough talent to cut it in this business. You got lucky and I took a flier on you, and I have spent every second since making sure you were looked at as the best in the business. Your crusades have derailed every attempt I've made, and if it weren't for the flash of luck you seem to manage every now and again I'd have cut you off months ago. I make you what you are, Drake."
"Think whatever you want, Max. I'm not interested in doing this anymore. This relationship is over."
I turned on my heel to walk out, knowing it wouldn't work, but if I could provoke him, get him off his game...
"You're an even bigger idiot than I thought. Our contract is ironclad, Drake. Walk out that door and I'll sue you into the ground."
"That's all you ever can manage, isn't it, Max? Threats instead of motivations, lies instead of helpful advice, all you ever seem to do for me is make me miserable instead of helping me. You're as useless as you say I am."
That got a reaction, at last. Max's nostrils flared and his face went a bit red.
"Do you have any idea what you're saying? I am the best agent in sports. I have clients in baseball, football, basketball, all of them superstars. Everyone who's not represented by me is begging to be, and you call me useless?"
"What do you do for them, Max? Do you sit around and tell them how to hit a home run, or how to throw a touchdown? Do you piss and moan at them as much as you do at me?"
"No, because they're not utter morons! I don't need to instruct them!"
"I won a world title without you. I don't need you to do it again. I don't need a fat old man telling me how to do my job."
"This fat old man could still kick your ass, Drake." Max was turning darker and darker with every word. "Watch what you say."
"What, you'd hit a client? I think I'd be the one entitled to sue at that point, Max. If that's what you want..."
Max stepped around his desk and came to stand in front of me. I looked up at him with hate in my eyes.
"You will watch your step and watch your words even closer. Do I make myself understood?"
"Say it again, will you? But first, go fuck yourself, Max."
Max inhaled to scream something at me, but before he could manage he clutched his hand over his heart again. He looked at me with a confused look in his eye.
"I...ugh..."
He fell to one knee before me.
"Max?"
He slipped further, to the ground.
"Max, what the hell? Are you alright?"
He was still clutching at his heart and the realization sank into me as to what was occurring.
"Drake...pills...top drawer..." Max managed to choke out. I nodded, all the anger gone as I ran over to his desk. I checked his drawers until I found the pills and then ran back to his side. I opened the bottle...
And reconsidered.
"Drake...what..."
I took a look at Max. He looked bad, and we were on the top floor of a skyscraper. By the time any help got here, he'd be gone. Without the pills, he'd be done for.
And I held them in my hand.
Was this the price of freedom? I could let Max die. No one could say I didn't do enough. I could take the pills and call 911 right now. By the time anyone got here, it would be over. I had been given what I wanted. I just had to reach out and take it.
I looked in Max's eyes as he laid dying at my feet. They were full of...fear. For the first time ever, the proudest man I ever knew looked afraid.
I almost knelt beside him then. I almost took the pills out and gave him one. I almost saved his life.
But I made another choice instead.
"I'm sorry, Max," I said, placing the pills in the inside pocket of my jacket. "You haven't left me any better choice."
He reached up with all the strength he could manage at that moment, a weak hand extending forth, looking for help. Help that I couldn't deliver. Help meant tying myself down to him. Help meant this whole arrangement closing in around me like a vice. Help meant I would just keep on subsisting in this pattern of failure.
For all my struggles to break free, how ironic that in the end all I needed to do was...nothing. Simply to let this happen.
I watched Max Powers die at my feet. I felt everything - rage, fear, sadness, elation. It felt like I would burst as surely as his heart.
I called 911 numbly. An accident. Top floor. Powers building. Come quickly. All the usual.
It was over.
I wouldn't be here when the paramedics came. I turned to leave.
The door opened before I could reach it, and in walked Stoya.
"Are you two nearly done?" she started. She was texting something to someone. She looked up and saw the situation.
Her phone dropped out of her hand. She looked at Max, and then back to me.
"Drake...what the hell happened here? Did you..."
"I'm sorry, Stoya. I just called an ambulance. He dropped in front of me and....there was nothing I could do," I lied. Did she see the lie? Did I care?
"No, no, no, there were pills in his desk, didn't he tell you? Max! Max!" She ran to the desk and ripped open the drawer, rummaging through it.
"Damn it, where are they?" She looked at me plaintively, but I only shrugged. She ran to Max's side and tried to rouse him. It was far too late. Kneeling beside him, a tear ran down her face.
"Max..." she said, weakly, as if trying to call him back.
"Stoya, I..." At the sound of my voice, she turned back to me. I saw terror and sorrow go to bitter anger in a second.
"You did this," she said, clearly hysterical. She was right, of course, but how could she know?
"Stoya, he had a heart attack. I'm not a doctor."
"You...do you have any idea how much stress you caused him? Every week it was a new annoyance from you, causing him more and more pain until...you drove him to this! Do you have any idea what you've done?"
"I didn't ask for any of that, Stoya."
"Do you think it was all business to him, you idiot? Why do you think he was so hard on you? He cared about you, Drake, and you threw it in his face. You drove him to his death. You selfish son of a bitch."
She stood then and took a step toward me. It was oddly menacing.
"It's over, Stoya. He's gone. You can say whatever you want, it won't change that."
"No," she agreed miserably. "Because you killed him, you piece of shit."
She lowered her head and her shoulders shuddered violently as she burst into tears. I wanted to go to her, even if she would only knock me away. I should have. But I was already committed to this course of action. I couldn't afford to turn back now.
So I turned my back on all of them. On the dead man who tried to mentor me and failed. On the woman I loved, once, mourning and in tears. On all the ties that bound me.
I walked toward a pair of monsters, WZCW's latest rising darkness. An endless war that I was now free to fight. Lucky me. This is what freedom got me - a war to fight. Was it worth it? Was it worth letting Max die to combat Zeus and the Beard? Was it worth becoming a worse monster myself?
It didn't matter. This was all I had left. I could tolerate no other distractions. This was all there was.
Forever.