Before Victor even went through the curtain at Ascension, despite what any of the show announcers had to say, Victor was in the Elite X Championship match. A couple hours earlier as we arrived at the show, I happened to meet Vance Bateman on the way through the arena. Smiling, he waddled his way towards us with that ridiculous swagger of his. I tried not to but I couldn't help but smile back. I mean, it was only weeks ago that the general manager of the Meltdown brand cornered me and had me convinced that he was going to make something of the Russian. And by extension, make something of me. All those years in the business, negotiating and making sure I kept my cards close to chest... Poof! They were gone. I smiled like a 12 year old nerd who had just been asked to the prom by the damn quarterback. Ear to ear.
Make sure you prepare for gold he said, breezing past me like a gust of air. I remember his words landing on my ear, I think I may have slipped into shock at that point. Everyone knew that the Championships were the real money-makers in WZCW. And within 2 months, Victor was on the verge of becoming one of the highest paid names in the company. And what with everything else that would come with that, I almost couldn't believe that my luck had finally panned out.
Did you hear that? You're in a Championship match I had said to the Russian, elbowing his side as he walked beside me eating his Slim Jims. Judging by the look on his face, I don't think he liked that too much. You see, for Victor it wasn't about accomplishments and Championships. Victor was in WZCW to exercise, maybe, some of the demons that had haunted him since his days in Russia. I didn't know a lot about the man-beast that I shared a motel room with every night. But what I did know, was that he hated what had happened to him. He was a proud man, there was no doubt about it; I knew that from the first moment he stepped into my cramped apartment. And to lose your tongue through any means would be enough to rob any man of his pride. Perhaps it was a domination thing, now that I think on it; I still don't know. What I did know was that Victor only cared about one thing smashing his way through competitor after competitor until there was no one left to smash anymore.
And I had quickly comes to terms with the fact that I was more of a facilitator than anything else, I suppose. I get him to the ring every week, he shows up to fight, WZCW pays me for the service I am providing, and I keep him sane enough to keep on fighting the next week; that was the way it worked. And it worked well, for that matter. And now, now Victor really had the chance to give me some major return on my initial investment. Yes, we had been getting paid for the matches he had gone onto win but driving from state to state, and keeping the big man 's appetite satiated for any prolonged period of time had did a number on those funds. I mean, I barely had enough money to feed myself in the early days. But when Vance sauntered by me with those 9 words, I knew that the time had come to really cash-in.
I remember looking at Victor as we sat alone in the WZCW dressing room. Conversation was, obviously, very poor between the two of us; a constant reminder of the pain the Russian had gone through years prior. I wished then and there that I could talk to the Russian in any sort of language. I wanted to tell him how important the match with Kagura was that night; it was really going to set him up for Revolution and a Championship opportunity. I wanted to tell him about all of the doors that would open to him heading into Revolution as the only undefeated man in the company. But looking in his eyes, I knew that Victor didn't care. For him, this was just another night at the office. In the same way talking up clients and schmoozing with employers was all in the routine to me, lacing up his boots and handing out an ass-kicking for all in a day's work for the man fro Moscow. It didn't matter what I said to him really, he was going to go out there and put his body on the line because he enjoyed it.
It's funny, I remember just before that match, as we stood behind the curtain waiting for his music to kick in. I remember the usual anticipation I had being laced with something a bit more nefarious. Anxiety was something that I had come to know well within my short time with WZCW. But this was something more. I guess, if I had to put a word to it, it was fear. Being so close to something that you knew would give you everything you ever wanted was a double-edges sword in many ways. Both the Russian and I had put everything into this WZCW run and the edge of glory seemed thinner than a razor's edge. And given my history, the chance of it being ripped away from me at the last second were more than I could bear.
I gave the Russian one final look before giving him a slap on the back. Give them Hell, Champ, I said, barely keeping my lunch down.
I headed round the corner, out of sight of the uncaring Russian as I heard his theme tune begin to play. And with a flap of a curtain, he was gone. And in that moment I had never felt so alone. The Russian hated me, and everyone else for hat matter too. But he was the closest I had come to a friend since Marcy had taken the kids and gone to her mother's house all those years ago. I remember pulling the cellphone from my pocket and dialling in her number. So many times I had been this position before but had lost my nerve. I felt the anticipation build inside me, horribly mirrored by the sickness and anxiety. But I had to talk to her; even more than that, I just had to hear her voice. She had always been a calming influence to me in the past and I needed her more than ever.
Looking back on it now, I laugh at how sick the thought of success had made me.
I told you to stop calling here, Freddie! The kids have had enough of it. I've had enough it, you sack of shit!
Those few words are really what should have made me feel sick.
But you know what, as she hung up the phone on me, I felt better than I ever had. Everything I had done finally crystallised in that moment and it all made sense. I had treated my family like shit for years, chasing dream after dream; just hoping to catch one. I deserved everything I got. Marcy had been such a saint for all those years that I was married to her, she kept me going when I thought it wasn't even possible. And in the darkest nights, on my own, I had no idea how I was going to win her back. More importantly, I had no idea why I had lost her. But in that moment; like I said; everything became clear.
She wasn't an asshole, like I had thought. She didn't abandon me. I had abandoned any hope of a family life the moment I began chasing dreams and selling out to any Hollywood executive who would have me have a seat at his table. I was never home and when I was; I was unbearable. And it all came down to this will to win, more than anything. I had a fire inside me that you would never guess by looking at me. Sure, I was bullied in school. And Hell yeah, I got the shit kicked out of me by every guy who I ever crossed late night in a bar. But you know something, it just gave me more fuel for the fire; It just threw another big ol' log on there. I think it was that moment that I realised that Victor was the key to finally get out of this vicious cycle of work over family. Only then could I ever really go back home and start mending fences.
And as the referee's hand came down for the first defeat in the Russian's career, I knew that it was a long road that had to be travelled. I felt a lump in throat as he walked up the aisle, throwing himself against the barricade in frustration. But as he walked through the curtain, I swallowed that lump and looked him in the eye; his pupils burning in the fire of defeat.
We're going to do this, you Russian son of a bitch. We're going to get to the top of this business, do it all. And then we're going home...