X: Im not running away.
I'm standing in the middle of the ring, the lights down low to an eerie red hue. Next to me, the hooded figure stands ominously, observing the scene that my mind had concocted for todays bout of mental torture. I look up. On the ground, a prone Steven Homes. In mid air, me, halfway through twisting down for the Firefly, moments before my spine crashes to the mat as the diabolical Holmes rolls out of the way. But for now, both remain scarily still.
???: Then what do you call avoiding sleep?
I turn away, and look out into the crowd. Or rather, where the crowd would be. I scan around the empty seats, even the announce table and the timekeepers area at ringside. But theres no-one. Im alone.
???: In the last few weeks youve avoided me. Youve been getting by on an hours sleep here, a few minutes sleep there. Even before this loss; the biggest of your career. Youve been driving yourself into the ground.
X: I had experience at sleepless nights when Abi died. Im cool with it.
???: And yet, here you are.
My eyes fall back on the baron crowd.
X: Subtle metaphor.
???: And what metaphor would that be?
X: That Im alone, dumbass.
???: And do you think you deserve to be?
I continue staring out, and rest my arms on the top rope. I think back to Abigail, and the void in my life left by her untimely death. I think about my dad, and the radical failings hed made since I came back to the US. I think of Frank, and the injuries hed suffered from dads brutal outburst. Then I think of mom, and how shes had to sit by and watch this horror show unfold.
X: Probably.
The hooded figure turns its body, and though I cant see its face, Im pretty sure a wide smile has grown. Slowly, it begins to glide towards me.
???: So then-
X: But that doesnt mean that I am.
The figure stops abruptly in its tracks by my words.
X: And I dunno if maybe at some point thatll happen. That Ill lose everyone around me. Lets face it; Im a fucking walking disaster area. Its likely. But I dont have a say in it.
I look back out to the empty seats. My eyes catch a number of people whove now appeared in the crowd. I spot Faith, looking on; hope in her eyes. I see Red next to her, hands on the guardrail, cheering his best buddy on. And I see mom, in her seat, her hand to her mouth, worried for the wellbeing of her son.
X: It took me a long time to realise, but theyll be here no matter what.
I walk towards the figure, the tables now firmly turned in my favour in this encounter.
X: Ill climb, Ill fall, Ill get back up again. And theyll be my crutch. My confidants. My friends and family. Theyll be here for me no matter what I do. And there isnt a damn thing you, or even I can do about it.
The hooded figure stays still. For the first time, its height becomes more than apparent.; with the hood, its no taller than I am, possibly a bit smaller. And yet, its presence makes it seem like it towers over me still.
???: I wouldnt put that to the test if I were you.
It turns and glides to the corner my past self is diving off. It lifts its head and stares above.
???: You were so sure in this moment. So sure of your victory. Dreams of Kingdom Come, as the World Champion, defending in front of a capacity crowd, and in front of the people you claim will never leave your side. Yet, so sure of this victory, you still lost.
Two spotlights slowly appear around myself and the figure, and the red lights begin to dim, until were both stood there, in pools of light surrounded by pitch black.
???: But they arent the people you want there, are they? And as long as that remains the case, Alex, youll never truly let them in. And that will eventually drive them away, because they know that as much as you care for them
In a flash, the figure is now standing directly in front of me. It puts its hands up to its hood.
???: They arent
X:
her.
I sit bolt upright, covered in sweat, but not with the usual anxiety Id normally get from one of those dreams. I scan the room in my just-woken state; Im in my apartment in Phoenix. I look to the clock on the wall; the beam of light pouring through the window illuminates the clock face; 7:30am.
I rub my hands through my hair vigorously. The constant feeling of stale tiredness has somewhat reduced with the first good nights sleep Ive had in about a month, if not more. Well, I say good
I stand up and wander towards the window and pull the curtains apart. The world has begun its ordinary cycle for the day. Wake up, go to work, get home, eat, sleep, and then repeat. I walk away from the window and stare into the full length mirror to my left. There are bruises along my ribs form a house show the previous evening, but they dont draw my attention. What does is the necklace around my neck and the cross-tattoo on my forearm, reminding me of the day, a very important day. Before I do anything, I quickly shower, throw on some clothes and grab my gear bag. My thoughts turn briefly to the house show I have later on, but I know that before I can worry about that, theres something I have to do.
Because today is anything but an ordinary day.
An Hour Later
Twelve rows up, three from the end, seventy two steps from the beginning of the path. The bright sunlight makes such a depressing place look so pretty. So full of life, ironically. I approach the cold, grey headstone, remove my jacket and place it on the firm ground, and kneel before it. I lay the flowers neatly by the base, and take a deep breath, staring at the engraved name of my deceased love.
ABIGAIL PARK.
I stand there for what seems like hours, thinking of the right words to say to her. I know somewhere, somehow shes watching down. Im not a religious person in any way, but even I believe that theres something that happens after life, and that we can look down and watch over the life weve left behind. And I know shes doing that just now. I think back to the promise I made her, exactly a year ago. The promise of beating Steven Holmes. Of making her dream, our dream a reality. And I did; I beat him, and became champion, and one of the hottest things in recent memory.
But when push came to shove, I couldnt get the job done on the big stage. A number one contenders match against the same foe Id beaten for the belt. A rematch a year in the making. And lightning couldnt strike twice.
But now, a year on, I find myself in the same position. Joint number one contender to the Eurasian Championship. Rush awaits, as does Mason Westhoff. Both are dangerous in their own right; Rush has a ridiculous experience advantage, Westhoff is freakishly strong and has his buddy, Grand Mystique for back-up. I have nothing. Im walking into battle unarmed. But thats never stopped me before. I place my hand on top of the grave, and mutter under my breath.
X: I will not fail. I promise you.
Faith: Mind if I join you?
I look up, and notice
Faith standing above me. Shes casually dressed in jeans and a black vest top, with her dark red leather coat over the top. I remove my hand from the grave, and look back upon its rough surface.
X: Im not much company.
Faith: Thats fine. I was only asking to be polite.
She kneels down beside me, looking at the grave.
Faith: You look better.
X: Yeah. Finally got some sleep.
Faith: Does that mean-
X: No, no. Seems I got the family bumper-pack of bad dreams.
Faith: Bummer.
X: Tell me about it.
Faith: Still, you getting more sleep is a sign of improvement, right?
X: That was down to me though. I've been running from it, rather than facing it. That's the truth. I cant help but ask myself how much I......how much I let the fear take the wheel and steer. Y'know? I mean, its dictating me, when I should be
Faith:
the one behind the wheel?
I smile at the recognition of us being on the same wavelength, and look up at her.
X: Yeah. Something like that. And thats what Im gonna do.
I look back, and we break into silence for a few moments. Faith eventually removes her leather jacket and places it on the grass, before kneeling on it. Though I can't see her, I can tell she's staring at Abi's grave.
Faith: How longs it been?
X: Too long.
Faith: Yeah
(she looks over her shoulder, as if looking at another grave)
tell me about it.
X: Your brother buried here I take it?
Faith: (nodding as she speaks)
Right over there.
Another silence descends as we just sit there, letting the world pass us by.
Faith: Hows Frank?
X: Much better. He says he cant remember who attacked him. They hit him from behind. Like a coward.
Faith: And you still think it was your dad?
X: Bastard practically admitted it.
Faith: The police will find something to tie him to it. Dont worry.
More silence passes, broken only by the distant sounds of life around us.
X: I
made a promise.
Faiths attention picks up, and she turns to look at me.
X: Last year. I promised her Id become Elite X champion. I promised Id beat Steven Holmes, and become something. And I kept that promise. And now, a year on, I have another title shot. Another promise to keep.
Faith: Congrats on that by the way.
I barely hear Faiths last comment.
X: Last time I felt like I had everything against me. Like I was running up a hill that was far too steep. But this time, I dont. I dont know how to describe it, but the fire and excitement that I had isnt there this time. Its strange, I just-
Faith: -you feel like its the runner up prize.
X: What?
Faith: You lost your shot at the world title. To your mortal enemy Steven Holmes, no less. But knowing you were that close naturally makes anything pale in comparison. Its
natural. Anyone would feel like that.
I look at her for a moment, before staring back at the grave.
X: Something like that, I guess. But nevertheless, its one of WZCWs most important championships. Former world champions have held it, and that should be
no
that is my target.
Faith: Exactly. Now all you have to do is take out Rush and Mason Westhoff, and the prize is yours!
X: And therein lies the problem. Rush is dominant. No-one can touch him. Hes king of the old school and knows how to hurt people. Then theres Mason Westhoff
teaming with him last week was crazy. When I looked up and saw hed got the pin too, I didnt know what to think. I should have seen him, and kicked his head off. But instead, we both got the title match, and things just got a whole lot harder. But this week, thankfully, were on opposite sides.
Faith: Youre teaming with Mikey Stormrage, right?
X: Damn straight. I know Mikey, hes a good guy. But this stuff with Grand Mystique has
well, it hasnt changed him, but its awoken something in him. Something I dont think he even knew was there. And hell stop at nothing to get at him.
Faith: Well, sounds like youre a team destined to form. He wants Mystique, you need to scout out Westhoff for your title match. Not to mention the psychological advantage youd gain from a victory. And that goes for both of you.
X: Yeah. I mean, Mikey gives us an advantage in terms of tag team experience. Hes a two time tag champion after all; the only in history. But Mystique
Westhoff
The Sacrificial Alter are downright dangerous. We need to be careful.
Faith: They need to be careful. Theyre facing a guy who wants blood and a guy whos made a promise to his dearly beloved. Not to mention half of one of the greatest tag teams in WZCW history, and one of the most dominant Elite X champions in recent memory. You guys have got this. And when the title match comes, I know for a fact you arent letting her down. No way.
A small smile grows across my face. I look back at Faith, and feel a sudden wave of calm spread across me.
X: Ill deal with the title match when it comes to it. As for Meltdown this week, Mikey has his agenda, and I have mine. But well be united against our common enemy. And neither of us intend on losing.
I put my hand on the grave once more, before removing it and turning to Faith.
X: Thanks. I needed that.
Faith: No problem. And Xander
I know shed be proud of you. Hell, I am. And I ain't easy to please.
My smile grows a little wider. She pulls me close and hugs me reassuringly. We release and I stand, picking up my coat.
X: Thanks Faith.
Faith: No problem
X: Now if youll excuse me (I turn and begin to walk off)
, Ive got some asses to kick in Maryland.
Faith: Good luck.
I turn back to face her, another wide, cocky smile across my face.
X: Luck is for losers.
Later That Evening
Its early evening at a small arena in Baltimore. I walk through the door, full ring attire with a Triple X t-shirt over the top, still taping my fists, and see a familiar, rather large figure leaning against the wall in the corridor ahead.
Mikey Stormrage, also in full wrestling gear, ready for a warm-up match against two local competitors later that evening. But this wasnt the Stormrage of old that Id gotten to know during my time in WZCW. This was a Stormrage focused, and full of barely suppressed anger. He looks up and spots me coming through the dressing room door.
X: Well, you sure look happy.
Mikey: Yeah
had a lot on my mind recently.
X: Join the club.
We slap hands as I lean against the wall.
Mikey: Rough day, huh?
I nod, and continue taping my hand, before progressing up my forearm, taking one last look at the cross tattoo, before finally covering it.
X: With respect Mikey-
Mikey: I wont ask.
X: Thanks. Besides, weve got enough to deal with.
Mikey: You got that right. I cant wait to get my hands on Mystique.
X: Cant say I blame you. After what that bastards done . Hell get his soon enough.
I finish taping my forearm, and pull out a marker pen, and begin to draw the X on my left hand.
X: We get tonight out of the way, then we can focus on them.
Mikey moves away from the wall, and begins pacing, almost as if my words didnt reach his ears.
Mikey: I mean, all Ive had since All or Nothing has been good job with Westhoff and you only lost because he cheated. What people dont get is that Westhoff is an appetiser. I dont give a crap about him. Mystique is the one pulling the strings. Hes responsible for
everything. Nothing else I do matters, I just need to get my hands on him.
X: Well, you worry about him, and Ill worry about Westhoff.
Mikey stops facing, and turns to face me; his rant seems to have softened his demeanor.
Mikey: Thats right, your title match. Congrats on that by the way.
X: Thanks.
Mikey: Listen, about that. (Mikey walks towards me)
Youre facing Rush, who has Smith as an ally. And Westhoff, who we all know will have back-up too. It stands to reason you need back-up.
I ponder this thought for a moment. Mikeys words are true, and I immediately think of the perfect counter-offer.
X: The same applies to you. Mystiques gonna have his little bitch in his corner against you. You need some back-up if hes gonna get involved. I certainly wouldnt mind getting my hands on him again.
Before Mikey can respond,
Becky Serra walks through the door to their left.
Serra: Hey guys, ready for your interview?
Mikey: Sure.
X: Let's do it.
Serra: Great! This way, gentlemen.
She exits the door, as I draw the final X on my taped-up right hand. I stare at Mikey and we slap hands once more, before exiting through the door. I look at Mikey again as we follow Becky; his game face well and truly on. It doesnt fool me though; I know bubbling below that happy-go-lucky surface is someone who is not to be messed with.
Unfortunately for the Sacrificial Altar, and whoever the hell our opponents are tonight, neither am I.