Think of one moment...one moment you can call the happiest moment of your life...it's gone...but for me the thought that keeps playing over...over and over and over is Unscripted 2012. James Howard and I had just recaptured the tag team titles, we had made history. It probably wasn't the happiest moment, but it was damn close.
A sliver of light began to creep in through the shades. The sun was just beginning to peak over the horizon, though I was already awake, sitting in my bed, staring at a picture of James Howard and I holding our first tag team titles. Looking at photos from my past was the only thing that had helped make my life seem like it wasn't somehow stuck on repeat. Just an endless cycle of depression and anger. Grand Mystique and Mason Westhoff occupying most of my waking thoughts and all of my dreams.
Then everything changed. Grand Mystique, Mason Westhoff, and Derek Jacobs took part in a savage attack that put my best friend in the hospital with a neck injury. I had to drop the titles, and I started my slide. I was depressed, I was losing, and I was failing in my attempts at revenge. Then at All or Nothing, I had a chance to change all that. All I had to do was stay focused and beat Westhoff one, two, three, in the ring, and I would get my hands on Grand Mystique, in the confines of a steel cage. I blew it though.
I stood and started pacing back and forth across the room. Mother Nature was still being a moody bitch and decided that on this particular day in late April that forty degree weather was acceptable. I eventually walked to the window, the chill air almost felt refreshing, as if it was trying to combat the boiling anger inside me.
I took my focus off Westhoff and prematurely turned it to Mystique. It cost me my chance to get my hands on the man who orchestrated the assault. The loss to Westhoff did light a fire under my ass, as I reeled off wins over Ricky Runn and Constantine, and putting on a strong showing against The Sacrificial Altar, even forging a bond with Triple X, though I never was able to get my hands on Mystique. Each and every week felt like the end of a world in Mario. Another castle down, yet no princess.
I again stood and this time I walked to my bookcase, scanning the rows of books, looking for nothing in particular. I couldn't shake the thought of Mystique asking me to joining up with he and Westhoff. He had to be out of his mind to think that I would ever join him.
This week though, I had a chance to change all of that. I had that second chance that so many men covet. I was coming off one of the biggest wins of my career, having bested Constantine, the man who challenged for the World Title at the last pay per view, the man challenging for the Elite X title this very week. I could take Westhoff if I remained focused.
It was hard to remain focused though, because if I did lose, I wasn't sure of my next step. People had stopped caring, it was as if this feud was being fought over nothing, and when you're asked to fight a war that's over nothing, its best to join the side that's going to win. I had to shake that thought though, because even in dark times, we cannot relinquish the things that make us human. In all things, a calm heart must prevail.
Despite all of the sentimental thoughts and cliches that I tried to think up, there was one that I couldn't help but shake. If you can't beat them, join them.
I turned from the bookcase and went back to the window, watching the people as they passed by below me. Maybe it was time I started thinking about reconsidering my options and who I chose to call friend.