???: A bounty, eh?
The hooded figure stands by the window, looking out. Were in my apartment; the room is bathed in an eerie red glow, and Im sitting the other side in my armchair. I lean back and look to the roof as the mystery man keeps talking.
???: A five hundred thousand dollar bounty? Someone surely doesnt like you.
X: Oh, you think?
???: You need to be careful, Alexander. Very careful.
X: No wonder youre not normally helpful. You suck at it.
???: Im not here to be helpful.
X: No, youre here to piss me off.
I stand up and approach the figure, who is still staring out of the window. He doesnt bother to turn.
X: You seem to think I dont torture myself enough. I think about my failures every single moment of every single day. I think about her all the time, and yet, for some reason, you seem to think thats not enough.
???: It isnt.
X: You must really hate me.
The figure finally turns to face me. Not that it matters, as I cant actually see his face. But for the first time in this dream, he looks at me.
???: No. Not hate, Alex. Not hate at all. I care deeply for your wellbeing. And everything I do for you is to help you reach a state of
serenity. And only then can you be free.
X: Well sorry pal, but the only serenity Im interested in is the film with Nathan-
???: You jest. You always jest, about every single thing. Why is that?
I stand there for a moment, before turning away. As I do, I unhook the clasp on my necklace and hold it up as the figure watches.
X: Because the jesting Xander is who she fell in love with.
???: Really.
X: Yeah. Really. Problem with that?
???: None what-so-ever.
The hooded figure walks over to a door, and puts a key into it.
X: Theres me thinking thered be no field trip today.
???: You thought wrong.
X: Im gonna ask again. Why?
???: You know the answer-
X: Your answers a load of crap.
???: And yet, it wont change. The reason why I show you these things isnt important.
I begin to walk to the door; its blinding light almost hypnotic. I know one way or another Im going to end up where he wants me to go, but still, I need answers.
X: Then what is important?
???:
the reason why you dont want to see them.
The door closes before I can respond with yet more pointless questions. The light fades, and Im on my street, a few houses down from mine. But it isnt me I see; its a slightly younger Frank. Confused, I follow him, as he heads closer to my home. He opens the door and climbs the stairs, knocking on my door.
Frank: Alex, its Frank. Your dads friend. He asked me to come over and check on you.
The younger me doesnt respond. For the first time in one of these ridiculous memories, Im lost. I have no recollection of this memory at all.
Frank: Xander, open the door.
No response again. My spine runs cold.
Frank: Xander, open the door, please.
I watch as Frank hammers away. Hes frantic. He must have been told to watch me in case I do something stupid. Thats when it clicks. The memory; when its from. I stare at the wall by the door, and using my memory-ghost logic Ive seen in films, I press my hand against it. Shockingly enough, my logic works, and it goes through. I take a deep breath, hoping Im wrong about the memory, and step through.
X: Oh my god
The sight that greets me is the one I feared, and were this not a dream Id probably be sick on the spot. There I am, slumped on the floor and unconscious. With a needle sticking out of my arm.
Frank: Im kicking the door down Xander. Three
two
ONE.
The door is kicked once, then again. On the second attempt it flies off its hinges and crashes to the floor. He sees my prone body and immediately rushes over, snatching the needle out of my arm and throwing it behind him.
Frank: XANDER! Oh my god, Xander wake up! Please wake up! COME ON!
He pulls out his cell phone and dials 911. I sit on the edge of my bed, as Frank moves my body into the recovery position. He checks my pulse and my breathing, and begins to talk to the operator, telling them about my situation.
Frank:
yes, hes breathing
No, I dont know how long hes been like this
his breathings shallow but he hasnt swallowed his tongue
yeah, Ive already put him in it
no, he isnt responding, Ive tried
.yes
look, just get here soon, please!
I watch Frank panic over my static body, as the hooded figure walks into the room.
X: You twisted bastard.
???: You were shocked to find this memory.
X: Well, I was kinda unconscious. Im surprised I remembered this much.
???: More likely this is your imagination. Your subconscious will have heard Frank, and placed images alongside it in your head.
X: So
this isnt real?
???: Of course it is, Alex. What would be the point otherwise.
Triple X sits up, bathed in sweat. He looks around his room frantically, convincing himself that hes woken up. The TV is still on from the night before; a DVD of Drake Callahans matches is still going on repeat. Daylight streams through a gap in the curtains, with not a hint of eerie red light. X buries his head in his hands, and viciously rubs his hands through his hair.
X: Stay the fuck out
Its only after he speaks that he notices his phone is going off. A text message:
From: Faith
7:45am, 01/02/13
Hey X. Ready 2 talk if you are. Wanna meet this eveing? Xx
He stares at the phone for a moment or two.
Bottle up, or open up?
He slides the phone back open and replies to her message.
To: Faith
7:48am, 01/02/13
Busy until this evening. Come round mine. xXx
He clicks send, then throws his phone onto the bed and throws the covers off. He sits on the edge of the bed and takes a bottle of water from the draw next to him. He takes a drink and pours some over his head.
Get with it, Xander. Cant afford to lose it now.
Later that evening
Its about 9pm, as
Faith reaches Xs door. Before she knocks, she notices a letter stuck to it, labelled FAITH. She takes the letter and opens it.
See you on the roof.
Faith smiles, and takes the stairs to the top floor, and uses the fire escape to get outside. Its a beautiful evening in Phoenix. The sky is a deep purple, with the building and street lights of the city creating a perfect picture of a living city. She looks around, and spots X sitting on the edge of the building. She walks over to him.
Faith: Good job I like heights.
X turns to see her.
X: You dont seem like the girl to be afraid of things.
She smiles.
Faith: Oh really?
X: Oh, you have fears, sure. But not the usual ones. Spiders, heights, zombie apocalypse.
Faith: Zombies?
X: Okay, bad example. You get my point.
Faith smiles. X picks up a soda and throws it to her. She catches it, and joins him on the ledge.
Faith: This is
X: Isnt it? I come up here to think about my matches. Any problems. Generally whenever I need a place to think things through.
Faith: So the object of your thoughts tonight is..?
X: Among other things, Drake Callahan.
Faith: You
youve got a match against Drake Callahan?
X nods with a small smile.
Faith: X, thats fantastic! Youve got a match against a former world champion! Just the challenge you need.
X: Yeah, it is.
Faith:Oh, boy.
X: What?
Faith: Dude, you and I both know that voice. So spill. Now.
X: I just
Drakes not a nice guy, and thats putting it lightly. The things hes done
he seems like the kind of guy Id follow way back when. The guy whod goad me into that first hit. Who wouldnt think twice about giving a kid a bottle of beer. As long as he got what he wanted, hed do what hed need to. But even then, hed still find something to complain about.
Faith: Guys like that make me sick.
X: Drakes smart. He knows how to manipulate people into getting exactly what he wants. It might not be ethical, but it sure as hell works for him. That makes him dangerous.
Faith: Well, you just need to be more dangerous. Jump of high places. Do flippy things. All that kind of stuff.
X laughs.
X: Theres a lot more to me than just flippy things.
Faith: Fine. Kick him, too.
X: Itll sure help me see how I stack up in the company, though. Losing last weeks left me in a kind of limbo. I beat Constantine by DQ, but couldnt get the job done with the world champion as my partner.
Faith: Well, you were facing the King for a Day and a pompous, yet powerful, asshole. Not like you were losing to Darren Bull and Armando Paradyse.
X: Then Id retire. No question.
They both laugh for a moment. Faith takes a sip of her soda, and turns back to X, who continues to look out.
Faith: So. What are you gonna do about this bounty?
X: Urgh
I dunno. Holmes must be desperate to get rid of me. I suppose I should take it as a compliment really.
Faith: Err
how?
X:He must see me as a pretty big threat. He must think Im the only person standing between him and winning the Lottery. Combine that with the fact that he still hasnt gotten over the fact that I beat him for the Elite X title, and its the actions of a very desperate man. And there's nothing more dangerous with a powerful man who's desperate.
Faith: Has anyone
you know
tried to act on it.
X: I dunno. I mean, the interviewers were messing about with chairs on Ascension, and Saboteur and Saxton were acting VERY strangely on Aftershock. But no, I dont think so.
Faith: Well, they will. And itll be who you least expect, when you least expect it. You need to be sharp.
X: Faith, you know me. Sharp as a knife!
As he says this, he swings his arm out. As he brings it back down he knocks his soda over the edge, and watches as it falls to the ground.
X: ...I didn't even want that.
Faith: Slick moves, Spiderman.
X smiles back, and they sit there for a moment in silence.
Faith: Anyway. The reason I'm here-
X: Faith, look. You dont have to-
Faith: My brother, Jay.
X stops in his tracks. He swivels round so his body is now facing Faiths, giving her his full attention.
Faith: A few years ago, my brother decided he was going to get into wrestling. Hed found a school, he had money saved up, and he was ready to give it a go. He moved out to Texas, where the school was, and began training with some old wrestlers. Problem was, the other students there were, shall we say, not the cleanest of individuals.
X: He fell into a bad crowd.
Faith: Yeah. One way of putting it. I didnt notice at first, but, eventually I saw it. He contacted us less at home. Hardly awake in the daytime. His mood would just
itd be all over the place. And he just looked
out of it. The few times I went to visit him, it made me sick. All he did was drink and smoke, and I dread to think what he did when I wasnt there. But he was my brother. And I needed to be his sister.
Faith stops for a moment, and takes a deep breath. X shuffles over and takes his jacket off, placing it around her shoulders.
Faith: Thanks. He
carried on like that for a while. He just
he became a different person. Not the guy I remember growing up with. And then one day we
we just couldnt get contact with him. He seemed to disappear. The wrestling school he was at said hed stopped making payments, and hadnt been seen for weeks. We eventually got a call from the San Antonio Police Department. Theyd found him in a dumpster. Overdose. He was 23 years old.
A single tear rolls down her face, as she desperately tries to hold it together. X shuffled closer and put his arm around her shoulder. She rests her head against him, and the two of them remain there, still.
X: Ive been there.
Faith: I know, And I dont want to make you think of her, but-
X: No, not just that. I
Ive been where Jay was, too.
Faith looks up; her red eyes slightly wider with shock.
X: It
it wasnt long after Abi had died. My folks convinced me to have counselling and, being the typical teenager I was, I paid no attention. I ignored everything this woman said, and I was low. And I didnt see a way out. I knew
I knew if I could get clean Id have a chance, but I made one day before I used again. So I
I locked myself in my room and took everything I could find. All at once.
Faith sits there, wide-eyed at this revelation. More silent tears roll down her face, as she lifts her hand to her mouth.
X: The next thing I remember is waking up in a hospital bed, wondering what went wrong. Thats when I saw him. Frank. A friend of my parents. Dad had asked him to keep an eye out when they were at work, and he came round just after Id passed out. He knocked on the door and eventually knocked it down. He got me help. Saved my life. At the time, I hated him, but
he saved me. Not just then, in that moment, but for the rest of my life, Ive been different. He helped me get clean, he helped me learn wrestling, and he even helped me move. My dad never forgave him for that one. But he gave me a new lease of life and Ill always be in his debt for that.
X turns to face Faith again, and smiles.
X: Damn, we are so cheery tonight.
Faith manages a short laugh. X smiles and looks back over the edge of the building.
X: Your brother would be proud of the person you are.
Faith: X?
X: Yeah?
Faith: How do you cope with it? With Abi, being in your head all the time.
X remains still for a moment, before taking his necklace out and rolling up his right sleve, revealing his tattoo.
X: I cope because Ive accepted shell always be there. Shes a part of me. Once you get to the point of acceptance, you know theyre not really dead. Theyve just become a part of you.
Faith smiles, and looks back towards the city, letting out an other short laugh.
Faith: Damn, since when did you become the advice giver?
X: Hey, what are big brothers for?
Faith looks back at him and smiles.
Faith: I like the sound of that. Bro.
They both smile at each other, basking in the new found trust between the two of them, before X stands up.
X: Its getting cold. Lets go inside; Ive got pizza and more soda and theres no ledges to knock them off.
He helps Faith up, but she doesnt follow immediately.
Faith: Hey Xander.
X stops and turns back to her.
Faith: Drake Callahan.
X: What about him?
Faith: Just
he seems like the kind of asshole that Jay would have fallen in with.
She looks down for a moment, before walking up to X, staring deeply into his eyes.
Faith: Do me a favour-
X: Don't worry. Consider his ass kicked.
She smiles, and walks to the door. She opens it, but stops, and throws the jacket back at him.
Faith: I wasnt actually cold, dumbass.
X smiles, and stops at the door.
X: Thank you.
Faith: Thank me by winning.
She smiles, and goes through. X smiles back, and takes one last look at the beautiful skyline.
Deal.