The scene opens inside of a dimly lit office. A single lamp sitting atop a thick oak desk illuminates all of its surroundings. The fireplace sits dormant -- the ash inside a remnant of a long-forgotten fire, a distant memory. A bookshelf is draped on the back wall, casting a long shadow across the room; the books on the shelf are covered in a thick layer of dust, almost sealing in every bit of knowledge they have to offer. Sam Smith sits behind the desk in a comfortable leather chair with a pen in hand, scrawling his thoughts onto yellow notepad.
I write to be heard. My thoughts clang around inside of my head like loose change inside of a washing machine. I must suppress these thoughts from the outside world, keeping up appearances is as important as anything when you're in a position like I am. Being in the public eye -- being a professional wrestler -- means that you have to be some sort of perfect being, free from any flaws. The second you begin to show those flaws, people will begin to tug at the threads and leave you an unraveled mess, alone to cope with the aftermath.
I guess I'm sitting here writing all this down, hoping that it'll help me create a stronger outward appearance -- an appearance that will strike fear into the eyes of the WZCW roster and fans alike -- but that is difficult enough, considering the personal fear I had to overcome to even sit at this desk. I haven't entered this office since Chelsea left me, because it holds so many memories. I was afraid of seeing what I had once been and this office represented that perfectly. My law degree hangs above the fire place, various awards and accolades litter shelves across the room; this room holds the man I used to be within its walls.
Smith drops the pen and leans back in his chair. He lets out a deep sigh, staring off into the ceiling.
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A younger Sam Smith sits in the very same office, at the same desk, and in the same chair. The lights in the room shine brightly, while his desk is covered in paperwork. Sam -- cleanly shaven, dressed in a tailored suit, his face still containing an innocent youth -- intently looks down at the paperwork, his brow furrowed in concentration.
???: "You work too hard."
Sam looks up from his papers and smiles at the sight of his fiancée, Chelsea Shaw standing in the doorway of his home office. Chelsea is dressed magnificently -- a form-fitting dress accentuating her body, her long blonde hair hanging down just past her shoulders.
Sam smiles before responding.
Smith: "Just trying to catch up on this case, it's a big one."
Chelsea: "That's what you said about the last one, too."
A mischievous smile crosses her lips.
Chelsea: "I'm starting to think you love that job more than you love me."
Sam grins and winks back at her. She meant the world to him, he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her.
Smith stands up from his chair and walks over to Chelsea, putting his arm around her.
Smith: "Ready to go?"
Chelsea stuck out her left hand, brandishing the diamond engagement ring around her finger.
Chelsea: "My parents will be ecstatic."
Sam leads her out of the room, turning around to take a look at his office before flipping off the lights and closing the door behind him.
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Sam snaps out of it, looking back down at the yellow notepad on his desk, as he grasps the pen and begins writing again.
As much as things have changed in my life, certain things are still the same. Deep down inside, I still have the same lingering fear of failure that I used to have. I want to prove everybody wrong -- the fans and wrestlers who wrote me off, while I put my career and my livelihood on the line to impress them -- but I don't know if I can. A little over one year ago, I was in the midst of my first Elite X Championship reign -- a fluke, some had called it, while other completely overlooked the fact that I had made history; nobody has ever held that belt longer than I had -- and now here I am today, once again Elite X Champion, having made history in becoming the first two-time champion.
Most wrestlers would be satisfied with these accomplishments, but not I. I had bigger dreams, I had intentions of being the World Heavyweight Champion, but I squandered most of my opportunities against real top flight talent, like Barbosa and Showtime, while I clung onto a false sense of accomplishment, and remained satisfied with the mediocrity that the Elite X Championship represents. It is with these thoughts in my mind that I approach my match this week; myself, Rush, and Isabel Stone are tasked with taking on Matt Tastic, Celeste Crimson, and Sandy Deserts, in a match I'm fairly certain was thrown together without any rhyme or reason.
I don't know Isabel Stone, aside from the fact that she was one of a few young wrestlers who didn't completely shit the bed in their opportunity with the mentorship program, but I do not trust her -- just as I'm sure she does not trust Rush and I. My opponents are nothing out of the ordinary, I've faced Celeste and Tastic many a time, never having lost. Deserts is the wildcard, but I don't think she's a threat. Deserts and Crimson fall into the same category, they're both women in a men's sport, just trying to find their place -- as a matter of fact, the same goes for Stone. Tastic, on the other hand, just seems to be treading water until he can lose another title shot, as always.
It seems fitting then, truth be told, that this match comes as I approach a crossroads of sorts in my career. Will I be satisfied with the mediocrity if the Elite X Championship, facing the Tastics and Crimsons of this world, who have been in the company longer than I have and have absolutely nothing to show for it? Or, will I strive for more? Will I try to prove that my words are not hollow, that the promises I've made to destroy WZCW along with Rush, are not hollow? I know what I want to become, but I face many challenges in getting there. I accept that, but I do not accept the twisted logic within WZCW that will get in my way, trying to latch me to the mediocrity that I've been associated with for far too long.
Triple X, a man I defeated in a TLC match, gets to face the King for a Day, while I am tossed into a random tag match. For far too long, I've been saddled with matches and opponents far below me, while the likes of Tastic and Crimson have walked into matches against the likes of Rush and myself, repeatedly failing to prove their worth. The double standard in WZCW is sickening, and there's nothing that I can do about it alone, or that Rush and I can do about it as a team. I -- we -- can only go out and face the opponents we are given. It is no fault of our own.
Truth be told, some of the blame lies on my shoulders. I just recently squandered an opportunity against the World Heavyweight Champion, and was harshly flung back down the rungs of the ladder to face career midcarders. I refuse to become one of them and be satisfied with being fed to the stars, and earning opportunities for championships solely out of company loyalty.
I deserve the opportunities at the top of the card that are given to people like Steven Holmes -- the man I defended my title against repeatedly, as he received opportunity after opportunity -- just as I deserved the opportunity that El Califa Dragon got on his first day in the company, when I first stepped foot through the doors of WZCW. The madness within WZCW is not lost upon me, as it in upon most others. I am not WZCW's White Knight crusading against evil, I am crusading against lopsided thinking this company promotes, that inspired so many -- myself included -- to give up everything they had to get a chance to step into the WZCW ring.
I embrace the boos, the hatred from the crowd, and the dirty looks from the other wrestlers -- I accept that as my fate, because I am no longer one of the sheep that this company herds. WZCW sends out a message of opportunity, as if the wrestlers should be grateful for being able to step into the ring. Any man in his right mind would see the flaw in that thinking, just as I wish I could have. The company forced me to destroy my back, my knee, and left me as a shell of myself, having to depend on painkillers just to slightly dull the pain -- but WZCW would fire me on sight if they knew, which I why I have to hide it, as I refuse to fall short of destroying this company, and I refuse to disappoint Rush. It's paradoxical. Ridiculous, even.
I am on a warpath, and I encourage anybody in WZCW -- Callahan, Barbosa, SHIT, Titus, I don't care -- to stop me. Showtime better begin to count his days with the belt, as once I get a second chance at him, he will not be as lucky as he was the first time. In the interim, Tastic, Deserts, and Crimson all better realize who they are stepping into the ring with, because I am a far different man than I once was.
Smith sets the pen down next to the pad of paper. Adrenaline courses through his body, as his anger had overtaken him while writing. He reaches over to the sole picture frame on his desk and flings it into the wall across the room.
Among the shattered glass and broken frame lies the photo. The photo shows Sam Smith backstage with Chelsea Shaw, moments removed from winning his first Elite X Championship, a giant grin across his face and the title raised high.