Two legendary competitors in two consecutive matches.
No matter how many times I said that phrase in my head, or to myself, I could not bring myself to believe it to be true. It seemed surreal for me, someone who hadn't exactly ended 2016, the "Year of Eve Taylor" as I boldly proclaimed many a time, with the greatest record. All the anguish; all the misery; all the doubt that was in my head, swirling through my thoughts... it was all worth the pain and suffering to create a resurgence in my career, and a new desire in wanting to become the best, because I've now got two legendary names under my belt that I've defeated in recent weeks. Not only did I defeat the woman who everybody regarded as the greatest female of all time, Celeste Crimson, but I defeated the man who holds the record for the longest Eurasian title defense in WZCW History, Titus Avison, who is slowly closing the gap on the greatest reign of all time, Tyrone Blades' year-long World title reign. I defeated both of them in consecutive weeks. One after the other. I can't believe it, and I was there! I was physically in the ring against those two competitors, and I was the one to put them down for the count, or make them tap. I witnessed it first-hand, as first-hand as first-hand can get... and yet, I'm still awestruck. All I wanted to do was yell it out to the world, and tell everybody of my accomplishment. That's how excited I was for my achievements, and how pumped I was for future opportunities. For a moment, I was happy. I was back on the trail of success, and glory. It was the road I sacrificed everything for to be on, and I finally felt unchained by my own burdens. No longer did I feel like an outcast to the rest of the wrestling tribe, but I felt wanted, and I was the seeker who was determined to fulfil her destiny at the top of the mountain. All this, I wanted to tell someone... anyone...
... but every time I tried to call Michael, he wouldn't answer my phone. I sent him a message, but he wouldn't reply. I considered going through social media, but I didn't want to harass him. I know he had been through some rough times recently, with everyone seemingly against him. I know that feeling all too well, and I just wanted to reach out and grab him; hold him tight against my chest and never let go. As much as I wanted to, I couldn't, because I was not in the right state of mind, and Michael didn't deserve to have me dragging him down as he was set to defend the World title on the grandest stage of them all. With his loss against Cooper, the fans rallying behind his hurtful words, and the connection between Cooper & Vis Imperium led me to believe that I had made a mistake. Maybe Michael was right: maybe we should've stuck together through the most demanding schedule of our wrestling careers. Maybe Michael & I could've worked through the Kingdom Come cycle, and we would've been there for each other. I keep reminding myself that hindsight is 20/20, and what I thought at the time was right, no matter how much it hurt, but the outcome... I got what I wanted: I proved my ability as a wrestler, and now I'm riding a wave of momentum, but Michael lost everything. He lost the title, and he lost me. I just hope Michael hasn't lost himself, but how can I help him if he won't talk to me? What can I do when every time I try and get close to him, he evades me like the plague?
I looked down at my phone to check if Michael had responded, but nothing was there. In a rage, I threw my phone at the opposite end of the lounge.
God dammit, I'm selfish, and I fucking hate it sometimes. All I want right now is for you, Michael, to be here on the other side of this couch, sitting here listening to me, talking to me, about our days. I couldn't care what we talked about, all I wanted was you to be here with me. There I go again; being selfish. I didn't mean to ruin everything we had Michael. It wasn't your fault. None of this is your fault. If anything, it's mine. I was the one who lost the Elite title, and the Lethal Lottery, and I was the one who became so depressed, and self-conscious, of my own abilities, that I destroyed the best relationship I've ever had with another human being...
...
... but what could I do? Michael wasn't answering me. The company won't help me. He wasn't at the shows this round, and he evaded me at Kingdom Come. The past has already been written, and I can't change any of it. As of right now, I can't help repair the relationship for the future. What else can I do?
At that moment, Abigail, the female clerk I met at the gaming store a few months ago right before I decided to take the dive into a relationship with Michael, came back from the kitchen with two cups of coffee. She handed me one, before grabbing hers and looking to sit on the couch. I tried looking away so she couldn't see the look on my face, and read my thoughts, but I wasn't quick enough.
"You okay?"
"I'm fine."
"Tell me what's wrong."
"I said I'm fine."
Abigail looked at me with a smirk.
"How about I phrase that differently: tell me what's wrong?"
I looked over at Abigail as she took her spot on the couch. As she did, she jolted up quickly, noticing she had sat on my phone. She grabbed it, and placed it on the table. The screen was not locked, and she saw the missed calls I had for Michael.
I had to say something before Abigail asked me questions. As much as I like talking to Abigail to my problems, I didn't feel like repeating myself.
"Look Abigail, that's a problem I'm dealing with. I know what I've got to do. I'm just angry, and frustrated at myself with all of this. I'm on my way to prove my worth as a wrestler, and I know my focus should be there, but how much more will I have to sacrifice to get there. I haven't even had a World Championship match yet, nor have I had a number one contenders match, outside the Lethal Lottery matches, and I feel like I've lost so much."
"And you'll probably lose even more. Who knows what you'll lose next. Maybe I might say something, and we'll never speak again. I mean, how long has it been since the last time we spoke to each other?"
Abigail and I hadn't really said much to each other. We've played a game or two online, but nothing major. It's not that I don't like Abigail, it's that I haven't had the time... or, in another perspective, I never made the time to keep in contact, because I was too obsessed with being the best, and I didn't even regret it until I thought about it. Damn, I really do have a destructive nature when it came to relationships.
"What matters most is what you want, and from what you speak to me, you seem to really want that World title. So forget about Michael. Forget about all the sacrifices you've made. Forget about everything that's happened, and do everything you can to get that World championship. What's done is done. If you're angry, let out your frustrations against those that stand in your way. Let it out against whoever you're facing next."
My demeanour changed very quickly. I was pissed off now. Not because of Abigail telling me to forget Michael, but because she just reminded me who my next opponent was: John Constantine.
"Arrogant prick."
"Excuse me?"
My eyes darted directly at Abigail. I was so angry, I put my coffee down. I didn't want to accidentally picture Abigail as Constantine, and throw burning liquids in her face.
"Constantine. He's my next opponent, and he's an arrogant prick. I hate him."
"Well, that's easy. Take your current frustrations out on him."
I've been told that I can be drop dead gorgeous, but I've never had the looks to kill, because I felt like I had a murderous look in my eye.
"Oh Abi, current frustrations are the least of my problems with Constantine. We go way back, Abigail. We back. Back to a time when I was first starting out with the company, and the second I saw that smug bastards face I knew I never liked him. I've changed my opinion on many people since I started, Michael included, but this guy? Constantine? I've hated him since the day I met him. You know how people experience love at first sight? When I saw Constantine, my body filled with rage and hatred. You know how when that happens in the movies, and the two people bump into each other, and they have that awkward pause before picking up whatever they dropped? Well, when I first laid eyes on Constantine, I wanted to shoulder check the cunt, drop his arse to the ground, and beat the living crap out of him with my stiletto until my footprints went red."
"That's... that's not healthy."
"Yeah, that's roughly my thoughts and feelings on Constantine as a person. Competitor? He's got some amazing accolades, and all the man needs is to win the Eurasian championship, and he'll be the next Grand Slam champion. I mean, right now, he's the Mayhem champion, and he'll probably end up as the final tag team champion in WZCW history, and he's on top of his game... but even then, I don't respect him. It feels like he's been making deals with the big boss, and securing his position within the company. That lying, cheating son of a bitch, getting everything he wants on a silver platter. That fucker has more failed relationships than I have, and he willingly stabs people in the back to get to the top."
"Do you hate him because he is everything you wish to be, and everything you've done to get to his position, he's done as well, but he's been more effective?"
I was going to pause and ponder about what Abigail said, because that is a very good interpretation of the situation. Eve had wanted nothing but glory, and success, and to be considered the very best. Constantine was one or two accolades away from being in that top echelon of competitors. Even without gaining those accolades, Constantine is still a Hall of Fame worthy nomination. I would wage that Constantine is the headlining inductee for the next Kingdom Come event. All Eve ever wanted was to be in a position similar to Constantine. All the accolades. All the gold. All the success. All the-
"Nope. Constantine is just a dick."
"That can't be the reason. There has to be some underly-"
"Nope. He's a dick, and I want to beat him so badly, he'll feel like Michael after our first date: drained of every fibre of his being."
"I didn't need to hear about what you do in the bedroom."
"Many people seem to question my sexuality, especially after the whole Aubrey Sloan saga, but after I'm finished beating up that dick-"
"Okay, I get it! You don't like him."
"Like is too nice a word. In fact, there is no word I can use to describe the hatred I have for Constantine, but it's a good thing I'm not in the political business where all I do is use my words to destroy people. Constantine might be good with his words, but I'm much better with fists. As far as I know, one fist is all it takes to shut anyone up, and considering the amount of shit that spews from that asshole, I'm pretty sure nobody is going to mind. So, I'm going to shove my fist so far down his throat that I'll come out the other side, wrap back around, and use Constantine as my own ventriloquist puppet to give the people a good show."
"I didn't know you were a very violent person."
"Abigail. I don't have a family. I don't have any friends, besides you, and even then, I've seen you like twice. Michael isn't answering my calls. I'm excited to be on my way to success, yet after three years of busting my arse, I'm still not in the World title picture, so I'm going to start busting other people's arses until I get there. Constantine is in my way. I hate his guts, and everyone and everything that associates with him. He's the Mayhem champion. Mayhem is normally very violent. Right now, I feel very violent. I want to not feel very violent, and be on my merry way to the World title. What happens when I combine all this together in one neat little package?"
I paused.
"Imma kick Constantine's teeth down his throat."
I smiled. The first legitimate smile I've had in months. I smiled because I was happy. I was happy to get the opponent to hurt someone, and I had no regrets. Abigail looked worried.
"Okay, Eve. You do what you got to do."
"Thanks, friend. I knew I could count on you to hear me out. Lord knows the voices in my head won't listen."
With that, I finished my coffee Abigail had given me, I grabbed my phone, kissed Abigail on the check goodbye, and set off on my merry way. Whatever I had to deal with in my own mind, and in reality, had to wait, for Constantine was my opponent, and I needed to deal with him. Every frustration; every anger; every bit of hate needed to be given to Constantine, because after him backing Justin Cooper to defeat my Michael for the World title, and sneaking his way up to the top, somebody had to knock him down a peg.
Prick.