HARDER!
That word kept ringing in my head. Days passed. Weeks passed. I kept kicking harder. I kept running harder. I kept taking bumps harder. I would start early in the morning and keep training deep into the night. And yet, it wasnt enough. Id been training at Horigoshis dojo for 4 years, but everytime Ill ask her about a chance on one of her cards, she would always have the same answer.
Youre not ready yet.
Id keep telling her I was, but she wouldnt budge. Id go back, grind some more, sweat some more, but she wouldnt budge.
Youll get your chance in due time, but for now, you need more endurance, more conditioning, more strength.
In my mind, I was as ready as I could possibly be. I was training 9 to 10 hours daily. Somedays, I wouldnt even be able to move my limbs after the day. Horigoshi would come to me, tend to me, calm me down. Shed sit by my side till I fell asleep. But for the life of me I couldnt understand why she wouldnt let me on one of her cards. JSS had grown exponentially and the roster had grown substantially, yet, she wouldnt let me on. Is she afraid that I might get hurt? Id constantly think to myself, if just to console myself into believing her actions to be in my best interests. But my frustration was growing. Id train harder than most, work harder than most, run harder than most, but it all seemed in vain, until that day
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It was one of the most defining nights for JSS. [FONT="]レスリングスターズ[/FONT](Resuringusutāzu) was JSSs biggest show of the year, and for the first time, it had come to Tokyo Dome. The arena was sold out almost a month before the show and the pressure was on everyone to deliver a big show. The card was stacked from top to bottom. Everyone was excited for the show, and even though I was a little bummed out because of being on the sidelines once again, I was hoping for the show to be successful.
Horigoshi would usually let me hangout around the locker room and watch the shows from backstage. Almost every wrestler in the company knew me. Afterall Id been hanging around them for almost 4 years. Id even made a few friends. Theyll tell me about their life on the road and how the whole experience was. Some of these wrestlers had wrestled all across the world. On the other hand, some would see me from the corner of their eye, as if I didnt belong here, but every time someone gave me the cold shoulder, Id make a note of it. Not that I meant them any harm, but I maintained my own list of people I wanted to beat once I started wrestling for JSS. All of that, however, was a pipedream for the time being.
I could see everyone going through their pre-match rituals. From stretching to praying, everyone seemed busy with one or the other thing. I was fascinated by these rituals and usually looked at them with googly eyes. I was talking to one of the backstage boys when one of the road agents, Mr Akio, came to me.
Horigoshi wants to see you immediately.
He sounded a bit worried. I hurried off with him to meet Horigoshi. She was pacing up and down when I reached her. Her face showing clear signs of worry. Mr Akio told her about my arrival. She turned to me, still pretty much in
Come, take a seat.
She sounded worried too.
So, you know Itsuko, right?
I nodded in affirmative.
Youd also know she was scheduled for a match against Mei tonight. Well, that match is not happening anymore.
To be honest, I wasnt surprised. Mei had a reputation of bad attitude. She had already no showed quite a few shows earlier, but she was always a good hand in the ring. A career that had spanned almost 15 years, she could always be counted upon for good competitive matches. She was matched up with one of our up and coming stars in Itsuko, and while the match was more of a midcard match, it was still billed as an important one due to the whole veteran vs new comer dynamic.
Heres the thing. We need a match for Itsuko as she cant be left off the card, and theres no suitable replacement available. I was liking where this was going. So heres the chance you were asking for, but only if you want it.
I didnt need to think twice. This was the moment Id been waiting for so long. I almost jumped out of joy at hearing her. I could see her being worried for me, but this was one opportunity I wasnt going to let go. I was shaking in my boots out of excitement.
Ive already arranged ring gear for you. Change up and be ready because your match would be the opener.
I rushed to the locker room and changed up as soon as possible. As I got in my gear, which wasnt much to see, I started receiving a few congratulations from some of the wrestlers. I couldnt feel any prouder.
It was time. I could hear the announcer making the announcement.
(Japanese) Due to unforeseen reason, we wouldnt be able to bring Itsuko vs Mei match tonight. But it doesnt mean we dont have a match for you. Making her way to the ring, weighing at 140 pounds, Shisuta!
I had no entrance music. I entered the arena to pin drop silence. While it was a little disheartening, I wasnt really perturbed by it. I wasnt a star; in fact, I was a nobody. And they hadnt paid to see a nobody. At least they were not booing me. I made my way to the ring and went to the opposite side of the corner, climbed up the turnbuckle and bowed to the crowd in the traditional Japanese way. I could see some of them reciprocating, which felt good.
As the music hit complete with her pyro across the arena, and the fans went wild. They knew who was on her way.
(Japanese) And her opponent, weighing at 275 pounds, Itsuko!
In all the excitement of my debut, I had almost forgotten what I was in for. Itsuko was a physical specimen. At 62, she dwarfed everyone else on the roster. She was almost double my weight and size. As she walked inside the ring she straight walked up to me, standing face to face with me. I was considered pretty tall for most girls and she stood almost half a foot over me.
I could feel the confidence slipping away from within. I am not ready! Im not ready at all! was the only thought going through my head. Before I could even think, the bell rang and she charged into me, driving me to the turnbuckle. It was almost like a pickup truck driving squashing me in the corner. I could barely catch my breath before she ran into me again.
(Japanese) Ohh! That mustve hurt. She looks to be in some pain.
She was hell-bent on destroying me. I now understood how she had been destroying her competition left, right and center. In fact, within matter of months, she had become a strong contender for JSS world championship.
She pulled me out of the corner and hit me with a short-hand clothsline. I hit the canvas hard. Before I could recover, she picked me and delivered another short-hand clothsline. I lay there all groggy from her vicious attack. And she wasnt even trying to pin me. She picked me up once again and irish-whipped me right into the opposite turnbuckles. I bounced off the turnbuckle right into a big boot that almost took my head. I hit the mat hard. I had been in pain before, but all the hours of training and pain looked nothing in front of what I was going through right now. I had not mounted any offense, and I was being mauled by her.
(Japanese) This match seems nearing its end. I dont see Shisuta coming back from that.
I was hoping and praying for her to pin me so that I can be put out of this misery. But she wasnt done yet. She picked me up and body-slammed me with all the force she had. Pain shot through my spine on contact. Before I could even hold my back, she picked me up again and slammed again.
Itsuko! Itsuko! Itsuko!
The whole arena was chanting her name. It was like everyone wanted to see me die in the ring. And she wasnt even trying to defeat me. From my head to neck to ribs to spine, everything was hurting and she wasnt going to stop. In most matches, by now she would hit her big running powerslam and finish the match, but she had taken some special liking to me.
(Japanese) Itsuko has the match won. But she doesnt want to end it just yet it seems. She is circling the falling Shisuta. She wants to punish her more!
(Japanese) What can you expect from a ruthless monster? I feel for the girl who had to debut like this on the biggest show of the year.
She picked me up and carried me to the turnbuckle on her shoulder. Then she started prepping me by tying my hands around the rope. I could sense the malice in her intentions. As she walked all the way back to the opposite turnbuckle, I could see the end coming. She went all the way back, looked at me one more time, and charged.
Oh my god!
Somehow, I managed to sidestep her which meant she ran chest first into the turnbuckle. As I tried catching my breath, I saw her winded at the turnbuckle. That was my opening. I gathered whatever strength I had left, and ran from the opposite turnbuckle to deliver a thundering enzuigiri on the turnbuckle to the back of head. This had disoriented her as she stumbled to the middle of the ring before hitting the mat.
Is she going to pull an upset here? Is she going to win this thing?
I dont know! But this is the first time Ive seen Itsuko in this kind of predicament.
She laid on her back, holding the back of her head, probably still shaken from the enziguiri. I had no time to waste. I quickly went to the top rope and measured the jump I had to make. Without any delay, I hit her with a high frog splash!
Wow! This could be huge! Itsuko is in world of trouble.
I went for the cover.
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2
Everyone was waiting with abated breath.
She kicked out!
It wasnt just a kick out. She threw me away pretty far. I got back upon my feet as quickly as I could and started elbow shots to her jaw before she could get back upon her feet. She showed me away, but I jumped on her again, delivering a few more shots to her jaw before she shoved me away. My confidence was growing.
This little girl is showing a lot of heart here. Standing up to Itsuko isnt the easiest thing to do.
I agree! But she might be angering the wrong woman here.
She somehow pulled herself back upon her feet. I wasnt going to wait around though. I charged into her, pushing her into the turnbuckle, delivering some rights and chops before she shoved me back again. I knew I had to be relentless. I charged again but this time I was caught by a big boot to my face! It knocked the wind out of me. Before I could even make it back to my feet, she hoisted me over her shoulder and delivered a huge running powerslam.
When I came back to it, I didnt even know where I was. I just remember a few words from the announcers.
The winner of this match via pinfall, Itsuko! I lay there, defeated. However, as I got up to get out of the ring with my head down, I could hear the crowd applauding for me. As I made my way back up the aisle, there were quite a few impressed faces, including Horigoshi. I was a bit surprised by all this reaction because honestly, I was still defeated under 5 minutes. Horigoshi put her hands around my shoulders, guiding me to her office. For some reason, she was elated.
You did very well today. I didnt expect this from you.
I felt a bit insulted. You didnt expect me to last even 5 minutes against Itsuko?was all I could think. I let her know it as well.
No, you misunderstand me. I know youre capable of much, much more and today you gave a good account of yourself. You went into this match unprepared, fought against a monster who has defeated every single one of her competitors under 2 minutes, and somehow almost won. Yes, the match still ended pretty quickly by a standard match length, but for debut you were great.
Her words were comforting, but I was still smarting from the loss. She came close to me.
This was also a lesson for you. We saw how quickly things changed inside that squared circle. One mistake and everything you did comes undone. And thats how you learn. We make mistakes, but the point is not to repeat them. Plus, never underestimate your opponent even at their weakest. You saw how she gave you an opening for you to make a comeback, as did you. No one is down and out until the final bell has rang.
My disappointment aside, she was right. I did make that mistake. She, however, didnt let me ponder for long.
After the show, when we return to our dojo, we have to finalize a lot of things, including your contract and wrestling persona. I dont want you to continue wrestling this bland beige color attire!
Yes! I was finally going to be a wrestler! A full time wrestler!
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8 years on, how times change? Here I am today. WZCW superstar as they call me. 2 matches in, Im still trying to find my feet here. It feels like Im starting all over. As I sit here in the locker room, I see all the superstars. Its all different, yet somehow it all is same. Some are genuinely pleased to see me here, and some dont like me. On the other hand, Leon has been trying to setup and interview with me and wants someone to be my mouthpiece. Im not sure if I want a mouthpiece for me, or if I even want an interview. I dont want anyone to know what I am, who I am. All that matters is what I do inside the squared circle.
And then theres my next opponent. Callie Clark. Dont know much about her, or her sister. What even are they? Celebrities? I dont know. All I know is shes new here, just like me. Unknown quantity for me personally. But over the years, Ive come to expect the unexpected. She and her sister. I have to be careful. I have the experience. All I have to do is use all of it.
Yes, the company has changed, but I havent. The ring is still the same.
I am still the same.