The last few days for
Eve Taylor were rough. All the thoughts in her mind circled back to her failed performance in the Lethal Lottery match; these thoughts distracted her from doing anything useful, oftentimes confining her to a hotel room bed. Her back was aching from spending so much time lying down, but the pain was nothing compared to the constant message her brain kept repeating over and over again:
You lost the Lethal Lottery. You failed.
It was a vicious cycle to experience, as Eve could not function properly with her brain so distracted, yet her body begged to move around. Nothing she could do by herself could help her escape, and her first match since the Lottery felt like years away... so when
Mikey Stormrage asked Eve over to his temporary residence for a night, she was extremely relieved, and eager, to accept a ticket out of this personal hell. It would be great not only to see Mikey for the first time since his victory, due to being busy with interviews and talk shows, but it was something to do, and something to potentially distract Eve from the plague of thoughts. At least, that's what Eve imagined would happen.
"Finally, I can take these damned clothes off."
Mikey and Eve got back to the hotel room after such an exhausting day. She was glad to get back amongst civilisation again, and have someone to converse with outside of her own mind, or some figment of her imagination. Yet, the thoughts in her head only grew stronger. She accompanied Mikey to a press conference where the spotlight was on him, and Eve was hiding in the shadows, watching from afar. She didn't mind taking a step back, especially if it was to see Mikey experience the fame and glory for his achievements, but that just made the pain sting so much more. Mikey was holding the title she thought she'd be challenging for in the main event of Kingdom Come, and Mikey was standing on the podium in front of the media she was going to address. Alas, she was not in the championship picture...
You lost the Lethal Lottery. You failed.
As Mikey tried opening the door, fumbling the keys to the room, Eve's headache grew more painful than before, almost causing her to buckle over, and grab her head. She managed to stay strong, so Mikey wouldn't notice and distract from his road to Kingdom Come. He was the World champion in the main event after all, and he needed to be the competitor with the clearest head... but the noise from the keys jiggling around was a noise Eve couldn't bear no longer, and she snatched them from Mikey's grasp. She carefully opened the door, before giving the keys back to Mikey.
"Thanks, Eve." Mikey responded.
Eve did not look at Mikey who gave her a big smile, and Mikey didn't really take much notice. He was really glad to strip out of his formal attire, and get back into something comfortable. As soon Mikey got inside, and Eve slowly closed the door, he ripped off his tie, and threw his jacket across the room, managing to get it to hang over the chair with one fell swoop. Mikey was ecstatic to see it finally happen, and he gave himself a little cheer with a big smile on his face.
"Hell yeah. Everything is coming up Milhouse."
Mikey spun around to turn to Eve, giving her the finger guns and the open mouth smile. Eve knew he was expecting a laugh, and normally, she would give a little chuckle at his silly antics, but nothing came out. Instead, Eve looked away and there was nothing but a blankness plastered over her face. Mikey's smile faded quickly, and he stood straight to approach Eve.
"Hey, what's the matter?" Mikey queried.
You lost the Lethal Lottery. You failed.
Eve flinched at the thought coming across her head, causing more pain to her headache. Mikey stopped in his tracks, thinking his approaching her did something to trigger her physical reaction. He took a step back, and looked really defensive.
"Everything okay?"
"Yeah..." Eve said, finally breaking her silence. "It's nothing."
She lifted her head up ever so slightly as the pain subsided, and slowly approached Mikey. He goes to wrap his arms around her for a hug, but she puts up her hands to stop him. Gently, she pushes his arms back into position.
"It's just a headache."
Eve places her hands carefully onto his chest, and slowly begins to undo the top button. Mikey looks at Eve right in the face, attempting to make eye contact, but Eve kept her head buried from sight. She concentrated on softly undoing the buttons on Mikey's shirt. That's the only thought she had to have in her head right now. She had to take off Mikey's shirt, and she had to do it slowly. It had been days since the Lottery, and the two haven't had time to celebrate Mikey's victory. Eve needed something else on her mind.
"Normally when a girl says she has a headache, she puts my shirt back on." Mikey joked, looking to lighten up the sombre mood.
Once again, Eve did not react, and Mikey quickly stopped laughing, doing his best to act naturally. Eve managed to undo the final button, and took off his shirt. Mikey reciprocated, and slowly pulled Eve's shirt off her back. Despite being in the warm room, a chill run up her spine and coursed through her veins... but it wasn't one of excitement, nervousness, or even reminiscent of the cold winter winds from outside.
You lost the Lethal Lottery. You failed.
Eve flinched once more, but she managed to cover it up by putting her head against the chest of Mikey, and looked to undo his belt buckle. Much like Mikey with the keys, she began to fumble, and she couldn't work out the belt. The thought her of losing the Lethal Lottery began to overpower her. Although it was a standard belt buckle that any idiot could figure out, something felt like it was pulling Eve's hands away from Mikey's belt buckle. Something great was telling her that she shouldn't undo the belt of Mikey, because the belt reminded Eve of the belt that he had just won for the second time at the Lethal Lottery. She knew how hard it took for Mikey to win the belt for the first time, and it only took one person to take it away from him. After going through the pain of chasing the belt once more, Eve didn't want to be that one person that undid the belt around Mikey's waist.
She stopped, and she took a step back, with her left arm crossing over her chest, trying to cover her cleavage, and holding her right elbow, looking away from Mikey. He tried to reach out for her, but she took another step back as he did so, letting him know she didn't want him to touch him at that moment. He nodded immediately, and he took a step back himself.
"Look, if you're not ready-"
Eve shook her head, interrupting his sentence.
"It's not that, Mikey." She responded. "I am... ready... it's just..."
You lost the Lethal Lottery. You failed.
Eve closed her eyes hard to stop her from flinching from the pain. After a few seconds, she opened them back up, and she did her best to focus on Mikey without her eyes wandering elsewhere.
"I don't want to be a distraction." Eve finally admitted. "You're the World Champion, and you're going to be wrestling in the biggest match of your life in a few weeks. You'll be fighting in the closing match of the biggest event to defend your title. It's a big responsibility, and I can't be here to take your focus away from it."
Mikey couldn't believe what he was hearing, and let out a laugh.
"A distraction? You've seen me play video games and work out at the gym, among other things. I can prioritise more than one thing."
"But I don't want you to prioritise me."
"Why not?"
You lost the Lethal Lottery. You failed.
"You're my girlfriend, and yes, I've got a big match coming up, but I can't just abandon you."
"You're not abandoning me. I'm giving you the chance to concentrate on this match. We'll still be a couple, but we won't be a couple until this match is over. You need to have a clear mind."
"What does that mean?"
Eve looked directly at Mikey, doing her best not to be affected by the pain. She wanted to let Mikey know she was serious in her words she was about to speak.
"What I'm saying... I think we need to take a break from each other."
The words hit Mikey like a truck, but the pain was just as equal for her to say it. She didn't want to say these words, but it was the right thing to happen.
"You're about to compete in the biggest match ever that any wrestler could dream about. This isn't your regular title match... this is going to be THE title match, and I can't be in your way. I can't be the one to hold you back, or put more on your plate, because we are dating. It'd be unfair on you if after long days of promoting your match, training heavily, and travelling the world, I demand for you to make time for me. It'd be very selfish, because this isn't my time, nor is it my spotlight. It's all yours, and you need as much time as you can to make sure that you keep the spotlight, and the World championship on you."
Mikey is shaking his head.
"But I just said I'm fine with it all. I can handle myself, Eve. You aren't a distraction for me."
"I will become a distraction."
Both pause for a moment, trying to digest what Eve had said.
"I fear I will become a distraction, Mikey." Eve clarified.
Eve had to come clean. She couldn't play on Mikey's feelings and thoughts. She had to admit her own, and tell them to Mikey. It is only fair for Eve to be the problem, and to tell Mikey everything is on her.
"For the longest time, I've been telling everybody that I wanted to show I was the best. I won the Elite championship on a second chance, on a rebound, from losing the Eurasian title, and I wanted to show everyone I wasn't about to let this opportunity slip through my fingers. So, I drummed the thought into my head that I was going to be the best, and I worked damned hard to prove I was the best. For a minute, I did just that. I broke records and won big matches. After all I had accomplished, I thought I was a shoe-in for the Lottery, and I believed in my own hype. I thought I'd be able to win the Lottery with ease, and my only worry was whether you were able to overcome Garth Black to become World champion again... but it turns out I was wrong. You fought your way back to the World title, and I... I..."
Eve started getting headaches again.
"I lost the Lethal Lottery. I failed."
It hurt for Eve to admit; yet, her thoughts started to become much clearer.
"All my plans for Kingdom Come were banking on my flawless victory at the Lottery, but that victory never came. I wasn't the runner-up in the Lottery. I wasn't in the Final Four. Hell, Mikey, I wasn't even cheated out of my spot. I was eliminated, fair and square. I wasn't the best, I did not win, and I will not challenge for the World championship, the only goal that I have in my life. The closest I'll ever get to the World title is by being close to you, and vicariously living through you as you defend it. I love that you are the World champion, and you've gotten the main event spot you deserve, but I can't sit on the sidelines watching you the whole time. I can't be the trophy wife you take to interviews, press conferences, fan meet-ups... I can't be the third wheel. I have my own life, and my own career, to live."
"You're not a trophy, Eve. This World title on my shoulder is a trophy, but you're my girlfriend. You are a real person, and I lov-."
"You don't get it, Mikey." Eve interrupted. "I built myself on becoming the best, and I lost the only opportunity I had at being the best. Another chance may come up along the way, but until then, I don't want to be the sad cloud who follows you around. I fear that if I do, I will do something to you that'll break us apart forever. I mean, look at me right now. I'm an emotional wreck after just losing one match. Can you imagine what I'll do after my match with Mark Keaton, the tag team partner of the guy you're facing in the main event of Kingdom Come? Mikey... I'm scared of what I'm going to do in the ring against this guy. Not because I'm going to rip his throat out, but because I'll be using him as a way to punch out my grievances, and do your bidding. I can't interfere in your life like that. It's your match, not mine... and I should be treating my match against Mark Keaton as a standalone fight. He's a rising star in this business, and he'll be a remarkable competitor one day... and being so closely associated with the number one contender, and being apart of a great tag team, I can't afford to lose...
Eve had began ranting, and she took a second to take a deep breath, getting back to the point.
"I've already lost the Lethal Lottery, Mikey. I don't want to lose another person in my life."
Eve steps forward and grabs Mikey's hand.
"I don't want to lose you."
The stare at each other for a moment. She sees how serious Mikey is taking this request, and is processing it as best as he can. Eve knows there are many questions he wants to ask by the confusion, and the disappointment, on his face, but those questions can't be asked today. They are going to have to wait for a while.
Eve slowly let's go of Mikey, and pulls herself back away from him. She looks away from Mikey, grabbing her shirt and putting it back on. She then grabs her handbag, and places it over her shoulder. It was the only thing she had on her valuable enough to place on her shoulder. She glanced over the World championship for one second, taking in the sight one final time, before she began to remove herself from the room.
"I wish you the best of luck, Mikey." Eve said, with tears beginning to form in her eyes.
Mikey looked back, doing his best to hold back his own, and remaining to be the support that Eve had so desperately needed to keep her staying strong... even after she had delivered this bombshell.
"What are you going to do?" Mikey mustered to ask.
Eve threw her hands up in the air, with a tear streaming down her face, and a nervous laugh coming from Eve. She had a smile on her face, but it was from disbelief of her being unable to find an answer, as well as Mikey's question.
"I don't know." Eve responded. "I've got to prepare for my match against Mark Keaton, but beyond that... I don't know what I'm going to do... I don't know..."
Eve approaches the door, slowly unlocks it, and looks to step outside. She hesitates, looking back at Mikey one final time up close, and takes a deep breath. For a second, she just wanted to apologise for all her words, and run into his arms, but she had to do this. There was no other option.
"I love you."
As much as Eve wanted to responded, she couldn't make a sound. All she could do is look down, exit the hotel room, and walk down the pathway to street in tears. She did not turn back. She did not change her decision. She had to move forward, even if that way forward was away from Mikey. She had to give him space, and she had to figure herself out. She needed to find out if she truly was one of the best, or if her luck in the professional wrestling world was up for the scared little girl who never should've left modelling.
You lost the Lethal Lottery. You failed.