Of Monsters and Men
Deep into the early morning, Dr. Porter found himself feeling extremely restless, lying on his cot. Dr. Porter never intended to sleep in prison any more, but his cot gave a small sliver of comfort late at night. Tonight, having an extra quarter inch of padding separating him from chicken wire didn't provide him any solace. He knew prison wasn't particularly a beacon of comfort, but it would have helped if he didn't share his small living space with a man he found morally reprehensible.
Dr. Zeus was a man that spent his nights pacing the cell, and the more Zeus paced, the more uncomfortable Dr. Porter felt. It began to feel more and more like Porter was trapped in a cage with a buzzard, and Dr. Porter playing the role of the dying animal. When people describe being locked with an animal, you hear the typical comparisons to lions and tigers. Dr. Zeus was neither of those things; instead of attacking his prey, Dr. Zeus looked more like he was silently waiting for his prey to die. He wasn't going to attack his prey; he was going to let his prey debilitate beyond recognition, and then pick the bones. If that were the case, Dr. Porter felt it wouldn't take long for his predator to feed.
Dr. Zeus surely knew that Dr. Porter was awake, but never paid him no mind. And Dr. Porter knew better than to attract the doctor's attention; when Dr. Zeus spoke to Porter, he would speak back. Other than that, the two never spoke. In a way, it was actually sort of a shame. Dr. Porter knew he could use the comfort of another person's voice, even if that gravelly voice belonged to a man he loathed so much. As Dr. Zeus paced the cell, he would look back to pieces of paper, study it as thought it was the first time he ever heard Earth shattering news, and shuffle along to the other side of the cage. Dr. Porter noticed that as he stayed, the papers multiplied on the walls; pretty soon they may engulf the entire cell. They were sloppily organized, hanging loosely from the walls on makeshift tacks. Regardless, Dr.Zeus always returned to these papers, mesmerized by their microscopic writing. It was impossible to read what the papers said without standing five feet from the wall, but whatever was on it had to be profound. Now, Dr. Porter was less curious about Dr. Zeus, and more to what was on these papers that adorned the walls. Dr. Porter realized this may be the key to understanding Dr. Zeus; it can explain what goes on in this man's mind. Of course, the thought of being in Dr. Zeus' mind was a little disturbing, but if it helped Dr. Porter survive, he wasn't too opposed to the idea.
Dr. Porter began to sift through his memory for Dr. Zeus' appointment times for therapy sessions. After all, he was a participant in these not long ago, and Dr. Porter could never forget the time. It just took remembering if it was weekly, or bi-weekly. Finally, Dr. Zeus turned around, and breathed in, as if about to speak. For a man that Dr. Porter spent so much time around, he rarely made eye contact with the man, but he couldn't help but do it now. His eyes were bulging and blood shot, but held the excitement of a child during his first Christmas. There was a sort of charisma to Dr. Zeus that was undeniable; you just couldn't take your eyes off the man. Dr. Porter braced himself for whatever Dr. Zeus had to say; but the good doctor had nothing. He exhaled, and sauntered over to his cot, as if no one else was there. Dr. Porter had become the proverbial fly on the wall; it wasn't nearly as fun as his high school buddies, but then again, this wasn't the Playboy Mansion, either. Still, Dr. Porter couldn't believe that Dr. Zeus had stopped his pacing; maybe he would finally go to sleep. Yes, of course! Soon, he would have his chance to see what captivates Zeus' attention so much. Dr. Porter realized he should take this very rare moment that Dr. Zeus was at rest, and get some sleep; after all, he could only sleep when Dr. Zeus was asleep. But there was something that made this paper take priority. This was a case of knowledge overriding everything else, and Dr. Porter had to know what was on those sheets of paper.
Dr. Porter waited an hour, until he could be sure that Dr. Zeus was at rest. There had to be a deathly still air to the room, and no sound whatsoever, for Dr. Porter to feel comfortable. Because he was on the top bunk, Dr. Porter also had to make sure that he didn't wake up Zeus. This would prove extremely difficult, especially when the ability to sleep lightly was a necessity in prison. When Dr. Porter felt the close was clear, he saddled his legs on to the right side of his bunk. He had to do so slowly; Dr. Porter could feel every inch of his muscles tense, as he moved slowly across the cot. No movement could be out of place, especially when you're trying to not wake a person six feet directly below you.Not even one creak would be tolerable. After slowly sliding himself to the right side of his bunk, Dr. Porter looked down to the ground, calculating the speed at which he would fall, and the reverberating sound that would come with it. He stared at the ground methodically for fifteen seconds, examining the best way to jump down without waking his cell mate. At a five foot height from the ground, it seemed impossible for Dr. Porter to reach down to the floor with one foot. It was going to take some form of jump to get down, which terrified Dr. Porter to think about. After pondering the situation, Dr. Porter felt it was time to bite the bullet, and jump. Dr. Porter pushed himself off the bed ever so slightly, attempting to land one toe onto the ground to keep some form of balance. He stuck out his other leg to land silently on the ground, but didn't expect to stumble, and lost his balance as soon as he hit the ground.
Shoot.
Porter stood frozen, expecting to be confronted by the vile man on the cot. He clenched his teeth and fist, and closed his eyes, expecting to hear Zeus' booming voice. It was over, and this maniac was about to do God knows what to Dr. Porter.
Nothing. There wasn't a sound, nothing at all. Dr. Porter didn't even bother to look behind him; he had just been given a gift from God, and he wasn't about to quibble now. He silently tip toed over to the wall, and squinted his eyes to read the material in front of him. He mumbled the words of the text under his breath, as he read a memo of messily scribbled chicken scratch titled
FWD: "Thought Forms and Tulpa".
Attempts to contact Patient X have not been returned. Upon the last meeting, Patient X went into go into a crazed rage, certain that a demon was following his every move. He saw him in windows and mirrors.At night, the demon would speak to him, persuading him to do awful things to those he loved. It started as a voice, but the more he believed in the demon, the more the demon took a physical presence. But what if this man's demon actually did exist? I've been doing some research, and stumbled upon something known as "tulpa".
"A tulpa is a thought-form: a manifestation of intent in human form of our imagination... Once the tulpa is endowed with enough vitality to be capable of playing the part of a real being, it tends to free itself from its makers' control. Tibetan magicians also relate cases in which the tulpa is sent to fulfill a mission, but does not come back and pursues its peregrinations as a half-conscious, dangerously mischievous puppet."
Patient X describes a guilt that he released this being to the Earth; after his disappearance, an alarming rate of suicides occurred in the Baltimore area, all including notes explaining that the "demon told them it was the only way". We were taught in undergraduate courses the concept of a self fulfilling prophecy; that if people believe in something enough, that the outcome will follow accordingly. What if this is similar? What if it's possible that these manifestations of our subconscious are willed (or thought) into existence? Millions of people believe in Santa, in spite of no recorded information of Father Christmas in centuries. But what if it's possible that this willing of an imaginary person to life works for those millions of people? It could explain why those millions have "sights" of Santa, while also explaining why those that don't believe can't see him. The same thought process can work for monsters, as well; what if our children are willing beasts like "The Boogeyman" and "Sandman" into existence, just by a sheer thought?
Nothing is more wonderful than the imagination. In one moment, you can be in the middle of daring adventure, or partake in a whimsical fantasy. Maybe, it can bring back those lost, and make them real again. But nothing is more than powerful than the imagination, either. It is the only thing immune to logic, science, and fact. It can also expand your greatest fears into an overwhelming nightmare. But can these nightmares take a physical form, and swallow a person into devastating darkness? More research is necessary.
-Dorian Geigel
Dr. Porter's face ran white while reading the memo; he noticed that all of the papers were filled with writings and drawings of Tulpa and Thought Forms. But there was more than that; there were pictures of a woman. This woman was... It looked like she was wrestling. There were pictures of her performing acrobatic flips and extraordinary feats of strength, and adoring fans. There was a psychotic look to her eyes; it was the same look Dr. Porter had seen in patients. Beneath the pictures, the text wrote, "Hipnotizador Gana!" Dr. Zeus must have been stalking this woman, even in prison. He must feel she has something to do with this Tulpa
Dr. Zeus was more than obsessed with this concept; it was almost as if he was attempting to conjure one up. That, or trying to stop one. Dr. Porter lost his bearings, and began to feel the world spin around him. As he tried to steady himself, he turned around. He found that he was being stared at by Dr. Zeus. In fact, Dr. Zeus had been starting at him the whole time. Dr. Porter was paralyzed, with an unspeakable fear. Dr.Zeus stared at him with those blood shot eyes for what felt like hours, before he offered a wide smile to Dr. Porter.
"Congratulations, you know what I know.
Now we can truly speak, and you can grow."
Dr. Zeus offered a grin to Dr. Porter, as Dr. Porter shuffled aimlessly to his cot, unable to make heads or tails of what just happened.