We all look to become legends.
We may not be aware of it, but it’s there. That deep, dormant desire to accomplish things far greater than a normal person. To be held in a regard that is larger than life itself. To be considered immortal.
I’ve tried to kid myself throughout my career that I have no such desire. That my purpose here is for two things; to entertain the fans and give them something to cheer, and to find solace in myself for my past life. But as much as I try to hide it, there is that third desire, deep down.
Well, not as deep down as I once thought.
Xander!
Rachel puts her book down and walks towards her son, throwing her arms around him with a warm smile on her face.
It’s been a while, stranger.
It has. Sorry. Things have been crazy recently.
She let’s go and leads him into the kitchen, where he pulls up a chair.
Yeah, well…you’ve got your life to live. And it does take you everywhere. What brings you back?
Have a signing here later on. Oh, and I wanted to see you too, of course.
Rachel smiles. She goes to the sink and pours X a glass of water.
Oh, I’m sure. So, how’s entertaining the masses going?
Oh, you know. Same old. Teaming with my enemy to face his enemy who I’ve faced before and his mentor, only for him to beat on his mentor after the match. X takes a sip of his water.
Oh, so the usual, then?
Pretty much. Then I have this HUGE match at Apocalypse-
-oh, do you have a title match again?
…okay, not THAT huge…
Oh.
It’s still pretty big though. I’m teaming with an Oscar-winning super hero and a professor who wears a mask, and we're facing a pirate, a Russian woman who likes to hurt people and Ricky Runn..
…sounds fun!
You have no idea who they are, do you?
Not really.
Well, never mind. They’re all big-time players in WZCW. Legends, even. Well, not Runn, but he’s still awesome. Multiple championships between them. If I can hang with them, well, I can pretty much hang with anybody.
Well, I’m sure you’ll do fine.
There’s a short pause. X catches a glimpse of his mothers hand, and can’t help but notice the tan line where his mothers wedding ring used to be.
You heard from Dad?
Taken aback, Rachel turns, and begins to do some washing up.
I…he came round here. Picked a few things up. Guess that box you took last time you were here wasn’t the last of it. He seemed well.
Did he say anything?
Not much. Whatever was said between you both is between you two.
Another pause. X looks down to the floor.
I’m sorry mom. I never meant for any of this to-
-Alexander Knight, you have absolutely nothing to apologize for. Your father is stubborn. Lord knows that’s where you get it from. But he does care for you. Perhaps too much.
X can’t help but let out a s******.
Care for me? Has a damn funny way of showing it.
He’s a complicated man. But he only wants the best for you.
How? By trying to stop me following my dream? He told me when I was younger to dream big, and when I do he tries to swat me down and tell me how to live my life. How is that the best for me?
Rachel sighs, and slowly sits down at the table.
Do you remember when you were little, and you and your dad watched All Star American Wrestling?
Vaguely, yeah.
It’s a bright, Sunday morning, and young Xander is sitting on the floor of the lounge, with Alan, his dad, next to him. Both are engrossed in the television. X looks on at the pair, and at the shockingly different relationship between he and his father.
I must have been five or six here. I remember we used to watch this every week for years.
As they watch, a figure comes onto the screen, wearing a white and green mask, with matching tights, and a red, flowing cape behind him.
He’s Oscar Sanchez. Dad’s favourite wrestler. Even here, in his late forties and towards the end of his career, dude was an amazing high flier. Probably one of my biggest influences in wrestling.
Okay, Xander, how many years did Sanchez hold the ASAW Light Heavyweight title?
Two years and six days!
Two years and sixteen! But close enough. And in that time he was unbeaten. No one could touch him. He was my favourite wrestler when he first started out.
And he’s my favourite wrestler now!
And you, my boy, have great taste.
They watched the match; nothing more than a 10 minute exhibition against a local competitor.
Damn, Sanchez was good. Even here, at forty seven, he was hitting huracanranas, enzugiris, moonsaults, and his finishers; the super kick and the swan dive. The more I see, the more I realize that this is where my style comes from, right here.
"…and there it is! The Swan Dive headbutt from the top! And one…two…three!!! It’s all over here, and Sanchez racks up yet another impressive win here!"
Both young Xander and Alan are cheering, ecstatic for their hero’s triumph.
Dad?
Yes, Xander.
When I grow up, I want to be Oscar Sanchez!
Alan laughs. Well, I don’t think that's possible. But you could be a wrestler like him if you really wanted to!
Could I???
Xander, remember one thing. Dream big, and follow that dream till the bitter end. You want to do it, then you can. Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t.
The memory becomes fuzzy for a moment, then returns to clarity in the evening. Xander, now at least ten, maybe a little older, is sitting with Alan in front of the TV, both in stunned silence. X watches on, focusing on the reporter who is speaking from in front of a packed arena.
"…and it is with great sadness that we have to report that Mexican wrestling legend Oscar Sanchez has suffered a severe accident, wrestling at a house show yesterday evening. It is believed that he landed on his head whilst performing a top rope maneuver, and has little to no movement from the neck down. We will of course bring you any updates we can regarding this tragic story."
The memory snaps back to reality, as X looks back up at his mom.
And he thought that’d happen to me?
Xander, your dad was as big a fan of wrestling as you are. But that wrestler was his hero. His idol.
He was my idol too.
Your dad was just worried that you’d get hurt. His anger stems from concern, nothing more. He didn’t want you to end up in a wheelchair.
There’s a silence. X stands up and looks out of the window. It’s getting dark outside. He looks at the garden, where he and his friends used to practice wrestling moves on a trampoline as a kid.
I get it now. I understand. X turns to his mom.
But I am who I am. Dad should have accepted it a long time ago.
Xander, he tried, but-
-no. No buts. This is what I do. And yeah, it’s dangerous. And I’ve been hurt before. But I know exactly what I’m doing. And if anything does go wrong, then they have medical staff on site at every show. If the worst happens, we’re all in safe hands.
That's not the point. I worry Xander. And knowing all of that doesn't stop me or your father from worrying.
X stands still. He thinks back to his dad when he was a kid; a warm smile on his face, full of love. Then to the last time he saw his father; a cold, enraged man, who wasn’t angry at X just for disobeying him after all.
I need to go.
X goes to the door.
Xander, you should go and see him.
X stops.
I know. I will. Just…not now.
He turns back to face his mother.
If you see him before I do, tell him…I get it.
X turns back, and heads out of the house.
A Few Hours Later...
It’s now the afternoon, and X is part of a handful of WZCW superstars in town for a meet and greet signing at a local sports centre, and a house show in the evening
There’s no point in worrying about dad now; there’s nothing I can do about it. After Apocalypse, I’ll swing by and talk to him. But for now, I need to take my mind off of it and focus on my match. Of all my matches in WZCW, this is the toughest. Celeste and Steamboat Ricky are bonafide hall of famers. And Ricky Runn is one half of the longest reigning tag team champions in history. He’s part of the future of wrestling, as I am. Daunting isn’t the word.
It’s a good job I’ve got partners who can balance things out a little…
X is walking back to the stand holding all of his merchandise; t-shirts, caps, dvd’s of WZCW events and, of course, Elite X title replicas. He continues walking, until he spots a familiar face.
Professor!
He runs up to the man as he turns around. The man in question is none other than
Steven Kurtesy.
Please don’t call me that Xander. I haven’t earned the right to be called it.
Crap. Sorry. I didn’t mean to offend you or anything.
No, it’s fine X. Honestly. Anyway, how can I be of help?
Oh, nothing. I just…you know. I know we’ve spoken before at shows and we actually already know each other, but…seeing as this is our first match together, and…as partners, I mean…and seeing as you’re a former world champion, and seeing as Titus is a former world champion, and, I just…wanted to-
…are you okay Xander?
Sorry, I’m just nervous. I mean-
X, you have no reason to be.
I know. Just, Titus is a legend, and you were one of the only guys that Ty Burna couldn’t beat. Two of the greatest world champions in history, and we’re facing two legends in Celeste and Ricky, and one half of the longest reigning tag champions in WZCW history in Ricky Runn. I mean, with Celeste being your friend and all, that must be…and…I just don’t want to let you down. I mean, I’m pretty much the weak link here, right. I just wanted to say I’ll try not to suck too much out there.
You won’t. Xander, you’re the most inexperienced in this match, but that doesn’t mean you have nothing to offer. You’re young, still trying to find your way in life. Your unpredictability will be an asset to Titus and myself, I’m sure.
X smiles, but Kurtesy’s expressions remain serious.
But it seems that isn’t all that’s bothering you?
The smile fades off of X’s face.
Just problems at home. Nothing serious.
No…no, I sense something more. You seem troubled. Deep down. If you feel you need to talk about your problems-
-no. Thank you. Trust me, it’s better we don’t get into it, else we’ll be standing here till Kingdom Come V.
Well, if you change your mind, you know where to find me. Darkness building up inside isn’t a good thing. You need to find a way to channel it, like I have with my mask. It’s only temporary in my case, and I’m not saying a mask is the answer to your problems, but you get the idea.
Thanks Prof- I mean, Steve. And we’ll kick some ass together at Apocalypse.
That we will. And anytime.
As Kurtesy goes to walk away…
Oh, there is one thing!
Sure.
…can I have a picture with me wearing your mask? The fan inside me would kick himself if he didn’t ask.
A confused smile appears on Kurtesy’s face.
Goodbye, Xander.
He turns and heads off as X walks back towards his table. As he approaches it, he spots
Faith standing close by.
You’re a hard man to get hold of.
X manages a half-smile.
S’up?
Not much. And I’m sorry I haven’t called, I just…
Problems at home?
Something like that, yeah.
Tough deal. Especially with a big match like this coming up.
I’m not sure I’d put it like-
-but it’s true though, right? A bit crass, maybe. But this could be a career defining match for you.
You’re not wrong. I’m gonna be in the ring with three legends, one of the best in the world today and a young star looking to prove something. I feel like a sore thumb compared to everyone else-
-god, will you quit it?
…quit what?
Being so damn pessimistic! X, you need to stop thinking like that. These guys were amazing in their day. They are legends. But you need to look at this differently. They’re has-beens. They’ve had their moment. They have paved the way for you, and guys like Runn.
X stares at her blankly for a moment, a little taken aback.
Faith, without people like them, Ricky and I wouldn't even be here.
But you're here now. And they've had their time in the spotlight. I'm sorry to come across so strongly here, but they're nothing more than place holders.
X folds his arms.
Oh really?
Well, take Titus for example; he’s one of your idols, yeah?
Well, yeah he is, now you mention it.
Well, he’s a former world champion. Former Elite X champion, like you. Why isn’t he in a title match?
I don’t-
And Steamboat Ricky; he came back to fight the Apostles but couldn’t beat Alex Bowen, a guy you beat, in his specialty match.
That’s not-
And don’t even get me started on Celeste. She’s considered a legend, but she hasn’t won a single championship in this company. So she’s been here from the beginning, so what?
Faith…why are you saying these things? These guys are idols, heroes of mine. They’ve earned their spots. Why-
-because you need to stop thinking of them as heroes and legends. How can you beat someone you’re constantly in awe of? You need to think of them as competitors, as stepping stones towards your own legend.
X turns to walk back to his stand.
Faith, you know why I-
-why you do what you do, yeah. But you and I both know how it works. You may start out believing you’re doing it for the adrenaline rush. For the fans. But at some point you’re going to want more than just applause and twitter followers. You’re going to want that trophy cabinet full of belts. You’re going to want the money, the cars, and the fame that comes with being a big player. And I think you’re already there X.
X stops, and Faith grabs his arm and turns him back to her.
It bothers you every time you lose, and it isn’t because you let your fans down, or your family. It isn’t because you’ve let yourself down, Xander. It’s because you’re a step further back from becoming a legend, and if you keep thinking about your opponents like you are now, you’ll become just another waste of talent.
You really know how to buck a guys spirits up.
I’m serious X. You’re as good as anyone in that match. If not, better. You need to start acting like it.
X stares her in the eyes for a good few moments.
Lets say there’s an element of truth in what you say. About how I need to beat these guys. Genuine question. Do you think I could beat anyone in that match?
Faith refuses to break her gaze.
At this point, how you are at the moment? No.
And if I looked upon Celeste and the Ricky's as nothing more than opponents?
If you put your mind to it X, you can beat anyone. But you need to be willing to do what’s necessary.
Faith lets go, and begins to walk away.
You're at a cross roads, X. You need to take their spots, X. Because they won’t just give them to you.
In somewhat of a daze, X walks back into the main hall and sits back at his desk.
I know what Faith is trying to do, but this isn’t helping right now. My admiration for Celeste and Ricky goes no further than that of a fan. Is that really too much respect for an opponent? No, of course it’s not. It’s gonna be an honor to share the ring with those guys. Runn too; he’s a young guy who’s really stepped up his game, and broken free from the shadow of Austin Reynolds.
…wait, that’s it. That’s the point. All week I’ve been thinking about how much of an honor it is, and not once have I thought about strategy, or working with my partners, or anything. I’ve been focusing on the legacy of each competitor, rather than how to beat them. I mean, I don’t necessarily agree with everything she said, but Faith is right. I need to stop being in awe of these guys. I’m not a small time independent wrestler anymore, looking up to his idols on the big stage. I’m ON the big stage. There’s a fine line between respect and worship, and I need to stop acting like a starstruck teenager around these guys.
X looks up to see a boy of around twelve staring back at him; a huge smile, with an autograph book. X returns the smile, and signs the book.
If I really am at a cross roads, then it’s time I made an impact. And it’s time I did it for myself.