Ive never felt like this in my life. My entire body is shaking from head to toe; Dr. Zeus has been my ruining.
Walking through the back after his match, Thrash passes The Beard and Grizzly Bob, who look over at him like a disease, like if they were to touch him, the same things would happen to them. Thrash take a seat on the bench, his legs wobbling up and down, he cant seem to stop moving. His throat lit up a bright red, the silence is broken by his loud coughs, along with the odd wrestler going past, talking about how their match went on the night of this Aftershock, an episode of Aftershock that will always stick in the mind of Thrash. Having felt as though hed overcome the mental problems that he was facing, they all seemed to pile back on as Zeus took the victory over the Rocking superstar. A face a paler white than the clouds in the sky, its a surprise Thrash hasnt been sick yet.
Where the fuck was Alex? All these times that he said hed be there for me and the one time that I needed him the most, he wasnt here.
The sound of plastic hitting the floor can be heard from around the corner in the corridor and Thrash, still shaking, starts to move his head towards the doorway. He cant see anybody, but he can hear somebody scrambling around outside in the corridor.
Whos that out there?!
Silence, as the person who is obviously standing listening refuses to respond. Slowly, trying to make sure that he has his balance in check, Thrash gets to his feet. He moved towards the door, passing through the doorway carefully, in case Dr. Zeus is back to finish off what he started. Carefully moving into the corridor, Thrashs face is one of apparent shock as to who he can see in front of him.
You. What are you doing here?!
Theres a woman standing in front of Thrash, in a pair of a jeans and a fluffy purple sweater. Her face gives off a warming glow, but her eyes look stern.
Michael. Its nice to see you. Somebody gave me a warning that things on your end might be getting difficult, so Ive decided to seek you out, so we can talk.
The shaking body of Thrash is obviously giving off warning signals to the lady talking to him, who puts a hand on his shoulder. As quickly as she does, Thrash is as quick to brush it off.
Who gave you a warning? Actually, dont even bother answering that, I know it was Alex.
Alex? No, it wasnt Alex. Ive not heard from Alex in years Michael! It was-
I dont care who it was right now
Laura. Cant you see that Ive got better things to be taking care of right now?
The woman standing in front of Thrash is his former Doctor, Laura. Her papers are all over the place, having dropped them on the floor previously, but she walks towards Thrash, leading him back into the Locker Room. She signals her free hand towards the bench where Thrash sat only a few minutes ago and he sits back down again. Laura sits down, underestimating how low the bench is and hitting her backside down hard on the wooden slats. As she does, a pair of boxer shorts falls on her shoulder. She picks them off, examining them closely and reading the writing stitched on the label inside.
Action Saxtons property; hands off! *Sniffs* theyre still sweaty
lovely.
In an attempt to cheer up Thrash, Laura looks in his direction, she can see it hasnt worked.
Youve changed. You used to be the serious Doctor, not taking anybodys crap. But now youre trying to make jokes and be all cutesy? Maybe I should be the one examining you.
Michael, now isnt the time for sarcasm. Ive been told that youve been having problems and look at you; your face is a shade of white that shouldnt be visible, your hands and legs are shaking more than they were back when you were 16 and well, your voice is cracking at least once per sentence. I know Im a Doctor, but even the stupidest of people could tell that something was wrong with you. Now, you know why Im here, but its not up to me to force it out of you, or try and torture it out of you, its up to you whether or not you need someone to truly help you get through this.
Have you got time for this? Youre lucky that I still trust you Laura, I know what you can be like remember, you told her what you shouldnt have.
Thats off the topic Michael and you know very well that I cant talk about that, even to this day! Now, can you start by telling me when these emotions kicked in?
Right, start listening. Just before I found out that I would be facing Dr
you know who, the anger issues started to re-appear. Like before, I dont know where they came from or what it is thats exactly causing them, but theyre resurfacing. Not as bad as they were before, nothing could be that bad. But being a Wrestler now, the aggression helps, you know?
It makes sense to me Michael, but if your anger is switching on in little ways like that, its nothing to worry about. What you need to remember is, that what youve experienced in the past is nothing compared to fighting to defend a friend. With your past actions, youre lucky to be here in the business right now, so Im sure that your anger problems arent anything to worry about, what seems to be the true problem now, is your current mental state. Can you explain some more about that to me?
Last week, I found out I was facing, well, you know who by now, forget that he even exists. Johnny Klamor taunted the shit out of me, talking about mental problems, the fact that
you know who was a Doctor and that he had a thing for ending the lives of people that he thought werent mentally capable. Gradually, my nights were filled with cold sweats, shivers and nightmares. Nightmares progressed night by night, becoming more vivid and eventually so shocking that they were causing me to react in my sleep. Just look, you can still see the cuts on my hands where my nails pierced the skin.
Thrash holds out his hands to Laura, as she looks at the cuts on his hands, shaking her head in disappointment.
It seems like theyve really done well to get into your head. Why did Mr. Klamor taunting you set off the mental trigger?
Thrash, starting to settle now for the first time in weeks, stands up from the bench.
He started to talk about problems in my life, like he knew everything. Whether somebody had told him or not is beyond me, but he knew absolutely everything that happened in my past, I can tell. That was when I started to think back on what I had done, when I was younger. You know what Im talking about Laura, images of that came back into my mind. I just couldnt cope with the guilt from the past, remembering everything that Id done to her.
Its ok Michael, you dont need to carry on, I understand. I remember how you reacted back then and it isnt something that you constantly need to have set in your mind, it was a horrible event and well, its nothing to be proud of, but its nothing that should set your future off of course.
You know what? I think Ive said too much to you Laura. Thanks for the help, but you shouldnt have to stay around and talk to me any longer. Ive definitely said far too much and well
there might be somebody listening around the corner.
You dont have to worry, Im sure that everyones gone.
Laura, you can go!
Laura stands up, but doesnt leave the Locker Room, only turns to face Thrash.
Michael, whats taking over you all of a sudden?! You were fine, but now
youre just, angry!
Thrash picks up his bag, his hands steady at last. He moves to the doorway, turning round to look at his former Doctor, now confidant.
Laura, I told you it was enough! Now, Im going home, Im going to relax and for a change, be calm.
Thrash starts to walk away, muttering to himself under his breath, as Laura stands in the Locker Room alone, looking slightly disheartened.
But Michael! I didnt tell you who it was that contacted me.
Laura moves towards the doorway, looking as Thrash exits the building.
It was her.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------
The Day Of Aftershock
*Slam!*
Through the bedroom window, the sound of mail being put into the mailbox wakes up Thrash. As he looks over at his alarm clock and it reads 06:12am, he can see why the noise of the mailbox woke him up.
Theres no chance that was the mailman, no chance in hell. Screw it, may as well go and see what it is now, theyve gone to the trouble of waking me up after all.
Walking down the stairs in his underwear, Thrash steps out through his front door and its just starting to get light, luckily nobody else is outside to see him searching his mailbox at this time of the morning. Inside is a piece of card, folded in half. On the front, is the advertisement for WZCW Aftershock and on the front it reads, Sandy Deserts vs Thrash First Time Ever!. Thrash smiles at the card, thinking it to be a nice way of bucking up his mood, along with getting him ready for his next match in WZCW. However, he realises the card is ever so slightly sealed around the edges, so he forces it open, where the message inside is less of a mood enhancer, but a mood killer, for Thrash. Its been scrawled in pen, attempting to look threatening. It reads;
So, Thrash takes on Sandy Deserts. You drew yourself a woman, didnt you tell them what you do to women? Somebody better not let his actions get the better of him, or there will be two of me. Ill be watching
Immediately, Thrash tears the card up. He walks back to the house, dropping it into the garbage can outside, before slamming the door behind him. He picks up the phone, frantically dialling a number into it, before slumping against the wall. The phone rings into his ear, before he sighs, as someone picks up.
Laura, Im sorry, I know its early, but we need to talk, right now.
He sits there with his head hung, listening to the voice of the Doctor that he didnt want to talk to just a week ago.
I know that I snapped at you, Im sorry! Look, I just had something put in my mailbox
yeah, I know it was too early for the mailman, just listen! There was a card in the mailbox, at first I thought it was just managements way of telling me who my next opponent was, as a way of cheering me up, but then I opened it.
Hitting the floor out of unknown frustration a couple of times, the look of fear that had only recently left the face of this man has returned. Tiny beads of sweat begin to appear on the brow of Thrash, slowly dripping down his face.
I was just getting to that Laura, hang on. I opened it and it had to be, it was a message from her. I couldnt mistake it, she was hinting at everything! Somehow, shes trying her best to weasel her way back into my life and remind me of that day over and over again. It has to be her, theres no way that anybody else knows about this.
He stands up, slowly pacing around, starting to make a circular motion round his couch.
Look, I cant keep going on like this. If she has that much of an issue with me after all these years have gone by, then Im not going to be able to cope. I know that what happened between us is horrific, but theres no way she can do this to me! Look, Im gonna try and shake this off, Ive got a match tonight, I need to prepare. Sandy Deserts may have lost her match last week, but shes definitely an opponent I cant mess with. Oh god, Laura, what if it happens again? What if she ends up the same way? I want to win, but Im going to have to be careful, if anyone tries to push my limit on that night, theres no way I could face her in the ring. Shes a former mental patient herself Laura, this could get extremely messed up. Shes a good wrestler, but Im just going to have to clear my head and stay one step ahead of her at all times, because for once, Im stepping through the ropes with someone that I can really respect.
He slumps down on the couch, feeling slightly more relaxed, putting his feet up and stretching out.
Shit, sorry Laura, Ive taken up too much of your time talking about wrestling, I didnt even realise. Maybe Sandy could be the help I need to get my head back on track, or maybe something pushes me over the edge before I step out there and ends everything. I know what happened in the past is in the past, but demons resurface, always. Lets just say, at least Im not face to face with her. I think then, I would truly crack. Ill talk to you after the show, thanks again Doc.
Thrash disconnects the call and gets up out of the sofa, not looking as stressed as he just did, but still moves slowly up the stairs, making his way into his room. Throwing some clothes on and putting his ring gear into a Gym Bag, he dawdles downstairs, grabbing his car keys from the windowsill and making his way off. Its showtime.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------
10 Minutes To Deserts vs Thrash
"Thrash! Its nice to see you looking so much better after your loss to the Doctor last week, where you left in a state that wed never seen before here in WZCW! You looked almost lost, but here you are now, ready to face off one of the few females we have here in WZCW, Sandy Deserts. How are you feeling?"
Thrash is stood opposite the best looking member of WZCW's "Crew", Becky Serra, who cornered him before he began warming up for his match against Sandy Deserts.
Honestly Becky, Im still not 100% up in my mind, but Im still here for the guys at home and the guys out in the arena, that call my name out every week! Ive been through a lot in the past fortnight and like you saw when I lost to Dr. Zeus, it really affected me. I wont lie, there are still thoughts running through my head that arent doing me any good and the feeling in my gut still makes me thing that somethings going to go wrong very soon, but you know what? Im here, Im ready for a fight, so lets go!
Becky smiles at the upbeat mood of Thrash, but inside, she knows its all a show for the cameras.
Talking about a fight, tonight you face Sandy Deserts. Youve not faced a woman in WZCW before, how have you taken to preparing?
Shuddering slightly at what hes been thinking of recently, Thrash turns away from the camera. But he quickly turns back, looking as positive as he can.
Well, Ive not been preparing any differently really, Ive just had to get my head in the right place for this fight, I wasnt expecting to have to battle with any women in WZCW! The demons are sure getting their own back with me right now, but when it comes to the match, Sandy is definitely a formidable opponent. We both suffered big losses last week, mine in a match where I had more of a chance than Sandy, so who knows what could happen in this one? I respect Sandy and honestly, were not too dissimilar. I wont go into detail, but myself and Sandy have been through some tough things in our lives, only some of them try their best to stick around and worm their way back in, to throw you off course. Im doing my best to keep my head in the game and I hope Sandy is, otherwise unfortunately, its going to be The Final Countdown for her!
Serra looks at Thrash, mildly confused, but eventually smiles in his direction, before offering her hand for a handshake. The two shake hands and as fake the smile is on his face, Thrash is trying to look happy.
Thrash, thank you for those words! Is there anything that youd like to say before you go?
Let Yourself Go hits on the speakers and Thrash clicks into motion, as hes due out on the stage.
Sorry, Ive gotta run!
Thrash runs towards Gorilla and you can hear the chanting before hes even made his entrance. In the distance, a voice can be heard calling out.
Mike! Mike!
Surprisingly, its not Becky Serra calling out, but a lady, limping in his direction as fast as she could, which unfortunately, wasnt fast enough. Becky stops her in her tracks though, not recognising her as Thrash is gone from view.
Excuse me, should you be back here? Im not sure I know who you are.
Smiling slightly sadistically, she looks at Becky with a fixed stare.
Oh, Im here to see Thrash, well Michael Sullivan as I know him better. I was here to give him a surprise."
Becky accepts the lady now, thinking she must be a friend of Thrashs, lost backstage like Alex always was.
So, are you a friend? Hes always got someone running around back here!
No, Im not a friend, or any form of acquaintance anymore. The names Vicky.
Nice to meet you Vicky, Im Becky!
Vicky doesnt give her a second thought, as her face moves in closer to Beckys, who is looking ever more intimidated.
Did I say you could talk? My name, is Vicky Sullivan. Michaels former love, his ex-wife or as you could put it
the lady he almost killed. Now, if you'll excuse me, it's really "showtime.""
Becky looks shocked, as Vicky limps off in the same direction Thrash went. Is she a crazed fan just looking to make her way backstage, or is the past of Thrash, the past he never wanted to forget, finally catching up with him?